Day 1 of Bursa Pursuit

Erm.... i've come out from the silence....for a while. And seems like there are big changes in posting up stuff... either that it's my browser's fault ==" Having trouble with posting pics on the post and i nid to use codes instead of clicks now. geez... Anyway...

There's two things i'd like to share today.

1st: I'll be in KL to attend an 8-day course which starts from 13th Oct until 29th Oct. Heng tai, i'll contact you guys when i'm able to meet up with you guys. My homework for that course just started today and i have to passed it up on this coming Monday. ^^"

2nd: Just thought of sharing this game with you all. In case you guys never heard of it. It's called BursaPursuit.

Just go google "Bursa Pursuit" and it'll take you there. So what is this thing that i so wanted to share about? Well, it's an online web-based stock market game. From what i know, this site has been up recently and there's ads about it on radios. So what's cool about this game? Basically you signed up to play, either solo or gang up with a few friends to trade stocks and rank up. And what more better when they offer you RM100,000 (hard cash) to you if u happen to be the winner. Another feature is that the information, the stock updates are all based on the real Malaysia Bursa Stock (formerly known as KLSE-Kuala Lumpur Stock Exchange). It's really an awesome and educational game among all the games i've played before. I got into this game after an introduction from my junior Thomian, Bryan Tong.

Since i just started today, i still don't quite have a clear picture on how to play stock market. But i'm seriously devoting myself into learning it. From my research, i found out that Even Australia high school students are exposed to this trading stuff..... then again if i recall correctly, even neopets have it. ^^"
But this Bursa Pursuit is far more different that those i've played. It's the real deal. Only thing fake is the $ i have in hand. The starting $ for anyone who signed up for this game is $250,000. That's a lot ain't it?

My progress so far is that i earned a gross profit of RM1.18 from 10 units of BJCORP. My next market watch will be:

1) Silver-WA
2) BJCORP
3) HSBC-C2
4) AIRASIA-CA
5) PBBANK-01

So who's interested in this? I'm thinking of making a league for it. Let me know so we can gang up and earn that RM100,000.


PS: Angel, how's everything there? All good?

Signing of,

~> MJ

Fly me to the polaris

Just feel like putting in some stuff here today and heading back to bed after that. Below is a short music clip from the movie "Fly me to the Polaris". It's one of the nice sad movie in my own opinion. The song is called 烛光(pinyin:zhu-guang)， candlelight in chinese sung by Richie Ren.



Life is so lonely lately. Each time i lay on my bed, there's this person whom i've been thinking of. I wonder how many person feel the same way as i am now. Sigh~

Anyway, hope u enjoyed it. :)

Oyasumi~

~>MJ

Busy busy busy

I know it's been quite some time i didn't blog. Been busy, mates. And been able to use the computer for about 2 hours per day for personal usage nia. So you guys be patient ya. I'll update as soon as i can steal some time. :)

Anyway, recently i bought a RED item that costs RM280. Anyone can guess what it is? Those who knows.... shhh~~~ xD.

I'll post up the clue somewhere soon.

Heading to bed now. Nites all. God Bless~!.

~>MJ

Re-Cap of 6 days ago

Been days since i've blogged. A few things had happened here and there. Coincidences are happening and they led me to think of what the other me in another parallel world is doing. If he is the better me, i bet he has already founf what he had been searching for and am in another country right now, fulfilling all his promises which he had made. Then he'd be more suitable for the title "Moses" rather than me, since of course he'll be truly a leader.

But what about the worst me? hmm... I guess i'd would be a triad leader in Kuching by now and am fighting with the cops now. Maybe that other me is already dead. God knows. ^^"

A heng tai smsed me and then called me yesterday. Got me really freaked out. Guess the facts of his life must've been harsh for him to accept that. "Slimy people"..if you listened to Hitz FM this morning then you'd know what does "slimy" means. Maybe some of you already knew. To put you readers out of the blue, "slimy people" according to JJ n Rudy (Hitz FM DJs) are people who steal other people's partner. Be it girlfriend, boyfriend, wife or husband. These types of people whom i think deserve to be despised the most. What do you guys think?

Anyway, What i really wanted to blog about today is regarding coincidences. To my best buddies and heng tai, my birthday turned out to be quite a surprise after all. That 4th july evening, my friend called me to have a drink session with them. just a few friends together. I knew it was my birthday that day. But didn't expect for daniel, a person whom i've known for 14 years to be planning all this for me. Summore i let them waited me for 2 hrs plus as i had to go and picked up my family who came back from Singapore. I felt touched. T_T Thanks man~!

Anyway, after the birthday song, and cut cake session, I got a call from M-chan. She tried to call my handphone but i left it in the car. ^^" So she got through me via Daniel. that was another unexpected thing... for her to call me and wish me. now here's when the coincidence happen. After that call, the waitress at that cafe went up stage and sang harlem yu's "Qing Fei De Yi". Deep inside me was like ..."WTF~!?#$@#" coz that was the song which i sang to M-chan. Is that a sign again? I told myself this, "it's just a lame coincidence." So here I am.. blogging about it. And then thinking of that old days. But i'm already over it. What i wasnted then was to meet with M-chan and see how is she doing back in Kuching. I got her number, but i can't find a reason to make that call.

That's all for now. The remaining days were just work, eat, sleep, dota. well, except for a particular night which I hanged out with Silas and Ek Zing. Was fun being back with them. Although there are some incompatibality at times, but in the end, we still mix quite well. After this friday, Silas will be to KL and GOD knows when i'm gonna see him. Well, I think i'll see him soon snce he's only flying to KL. Only think have to think is zing who;s flying back to U.S. 2nd August. that one i lagi tak tau bila akan jumpa dia lagi. ^^" Gonna miss his "Yen Wang" symbol~. Lolz...

To those friends who were there to celebrate with me, without you guys, i dun think things will be that cool. Below are the list of people whom i wanted to thank.

1. Yang Kah Mun -> First guy to sms, clal and blog to wish me happy birthday.
2. Daniel Liew 3 E, Alvin Wong and Ah Hong -> Master planner and the helpers.
3. Chok -> thanks for the "punishment" Thanks Daniel again for reducing the severity of the punishment. xD
4. My family (mum, sis, corine, ?) ->thanks for wishing me and calling/sms me. Without you girls, I wouldn't be where i am now.
5. 5sc2 gang(Kim Hang, Ek Zing, Silas & Amy) -> thanks for being the gang where i always go lepak at during recess period. xD Always wanted to be a level lower so can hang out with you guys the whole class period. But i just wasn't able to make that decision. ^^"
6. To the cyberians(Su Huan, Sim, MK) and malacans(...), tq tq~! ^@^
7. To M-chan, didn't expect you to call. and to thank you, i place you at number 7(your favourite number).
8. For those whom i left out your name, you guys/gals still play an important part in my life. Coz without you guys, my path taken will be in another direction.

My words to you all. Stay cool, live your live well, chill out when you're down and if you need something to light your candle, I sell lighters here. xD RM1.30 per lighter. Cheap cheap nia xD.

Am3n.
~>MJ

Happy Birthday to me

To those who have wished me, thank you all. You are my true friend indeed. As for those who knew but didn't wished me, it's okay. Maybe u forgot. To those who forget, well, u r more forgivable i guess. xD

Anyway, been a busy day, and my freedom ends tomorrow. Summore i'm having a bad mouth ulcer right now. >.<" I think i'm gonna live a short life. LoL.

Amen.

~>MJ

Glimpse of a few days back

In case anyone is wondering what the heck am i doing back in Kuching after graduated unofficially, I'm now working for my dad at his coffeeshop, office and tackle shop.

Work will started from 6:15am till late 10pm. But since i crashed the car onto a traffic light(correction from the previous post; coz i actually crashed into a traffic light), i get to wake up a lil' bit later and car pool with my dad and get to reach the workplace at 7am; or maybe 8am. xD

Anyway, my job at the coffeeshop is mainly being a manager there. For the time being, i'm getting myself used to the situation at the coffeeshop doing some interview and focusing on the cashier part. Then i'm to learn to make drinks and then serve the customers.

Seems like an easy job? Come and try it yourself.

I'm still having problems memorizing the price list of the cigarettes, drinks and foods. Anyway, the staffs there are friendly as they mostly consists of teenagers and young adults at the age of 14-26. The shop has been opened for about 2 years now and business seems well so far.

Then i have hte job as an office boy at the office. Well not really an office boy as i'm handling some important documents as well. More like a staff there. Currently i'm learning how to sort and key in the details of my dad's small business.

Next for the tackle shop, my job is basically to be a good host to the customer. Training my marketing skills and also developing PR skills. Aside from that i'll be developing a website to promote and sell the products at the shop. Old bean says if we can achieve a certain standard every month, he's gonna sponsor us for a trip to Japan. WooT~! But here's the catch; the target is a freaking high target. >.<"

Well.. that's all for now. I'm gonna sacrifice my time in this coming 6 months to work under my dad and at the same time sharpen my programming skills. Hopefully after six months, i'll be a more stable and able to control-myself kind of person. :P

PS: Mun, Rine...i guess after convo, it'll be a long time since we'll meet again. ^^" Anyway, add oil. I'll see you guys soon. :D Take care.

PS: Michelle Ang, how you doing there? Everything good?

~>MJ

Ran out of luck

Just when you proudly ranked yourself as the person who is achieving 0% car crash record....shit happens. =_="

It was a terrible day yesterday evening as all my plans going out meeting old friends and planning a crazy birthday was all crushed with one stupid mistake of mine. I crashed into a traffic light while trying to evade a pearl blue Mercedes that suddenly intercepted my lane from the left. The Mercedes speed up after he over took my lane. Sigh~. thank god my friends that was with me were all okay. Not a single minor injury. But the car was in a terrible condition; front lights, bumper, radiator..maybe engine as well.. all gone!! >.< Traffic light still standing tall as if nothing had happened to it. =_="

I could've turned left... which was the logical thing to do. But why the heck i turned right?! OMG..... Anyway, bygones are bygones. I just hoped that my car's insurance can be claimed.

In the last two weeks, this car had been nearly involved in road accidents. There was once when it nearly get crashed by a druken bmw driver that was driving the wrong lane. And then there was this time when it got hit by a kancil until the bumper fell a little bit. My accident, the third one! So it's a STRIKE! And i rand out of LUCK! Geeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzz~!

SAD T_T!

~>MJ

2 beds and a coffee machine

Just a song i find nice to listen to. Though it's a sad song. Savage Garden's not my favourite singer though. There's another version of it sang by a sweet girl.



*I'm double posting today*

~>MJ

To where i belong

I'm going back Kuching today. A part of me is glad. But somehow i feel so empty inside. Something inside of me is missing. Question is what is that missing thing?

Hopefully my trip back will be pleasant because i'm bringing two bags and a CPU along with me. ^^"

Right now i'm reminiscing what happen 5 years back. How 5 of us sat in a food court and discussed about places to stay, transportations and other plans when we get to MMU. then how some of us split because they got a better offer at the local university. Some got scholarship to further their studies to other countries.

The first mid sem break. The first loss, the first torturing trip which ended me crying in front of those two friends of mine. Till today, they are still my best friend. Though they are a pain in the ass at times. :P

Then there's my second chance and i just blew it up. Lessons i learnt in life. Always be willing to give if you want something in return. Sincerity may not be the the best policy. Sometimes you just need to be a lil' bit cruel. Persistence is the way to sucess. Always believe in GOD. Because if you don't have anyone to believe in, you'll find out that you do not have a place to belong to.

Basketball friends. The first time i drank so happily. And even after vomitting i'm still so happy about it. Thank you all. Hanging out with you guys at the court were my best times. Sadly I don't think there'll be another chance to do so in the near future.

My failures. And how i climbed up from the pits of darkness to reach where i am now. Still, i have a long way ahead of me.

Where do i go from here? I'm all alone now at square one. Me and my bagpack. I'll work something out somehow. I always do. It's the beginning of a new chapter now. . . .



~>MJ

I feel like....

Today is just a lame morning. I cant sleep. Must've been the caffeine. Now i feel so numb. >.<" It's like pinching on my skin and can't even feel a single pain. this is bad. Either my nervous system has gone haywired or i'm lack of blood circulation which causes lack of oxygen to my skin. Whatever it is, i just don't want to die right now. I got a future to create, a destiny to fulfill and a story to tell.

Ok... time for a break. Short break. Going to call kim hang up and send my package back to Kuching through Air mail at the post office.

~>MJ

I GRADUATED FINALLY

I heard from my clan mate that result is out. Checked and this is what i saw....

WooT WOOT~! I passed all~!! I'm finally graduating~!! Nyahaha~!

Gee i'm so happy. So happy that i wanna share it with someone.


~>MJ

I'm back in Malacca

After a week staying in CyberJaya, I have safely arrived in Malacca. :)

Places i've been to, people i met, stories i hear, it's all so new to me. Many things have i learnt. Many things have i came to understand. But there's this phrase which really bugs me. "The day I fall in love to you is the day I knew I would be rejected." Meaning of the words? I'll blog about it soon. For now, just enjoy some of the pictures which i have taken during my trip.

From left to right: Sim, Kah Mun, See Ying, Yuan Ping


BMW z3 and I @ PutraJaya ^^"


Corine n M-K


Pirates of the Carribean Gang


Surene n Ezriq @ Puchong Hill


Kah Mun n Su Huan taking a fresh air at The CURVE

~>MJ

Cyberjay

Currently i'm at cyberjaya now, spending my break hanging out with my brethens. I'm not sure when will i see them again after i graduate mid of august this year. Rightn ow i'm unofficially graduated. I did my last papers and i think they were okay. Though my carry marks are kinda low. So it kinda bothers me as well.

There's so many things running thru my mind right now. So many things happening right now as i'm typing. My friend, ivan, is training for his gig performance this sunday, mun, taking his bath and maybe thinking of his "u-know-who", simmy...dono apa dia buat kat sana(means dono what he's doing over his place in malay). And ezriq, my new friend who is either taking his bath or ironing his working shirt for tomorrow while waiting for us to crash into his place. xD

So how long have i been in cyberjaya? Well, a day after my final paper. Took the afternoon bus and reached CJ(cyberjaya) at about 5pm sumthing. It was luck that day; either that it's freaking fate that got me to meet mun after months. I was suppose to stayed at see ying's place and waited for mun to come back from work before moving to stay over his place for the time being. But somehow, on the way to cyberjaya, there comes kah mun walking into the bus. And there was that surprise in his eyes as he tot i would've reached cj earlier. It was cool. how often do you get to meet your heng tai lidat? ^^"

First nite, we had a small dinner at see ying's place. I took a few pictures but sadly i didn't bring the cable to plug it into the pc. Dang. Anyway, that small dinner consists of me, kah mun, sim, see ying and yuan ping(wan ping). After dinner, we went back to take a bath before going for a stroll around putrajaya. At putrajay, they were having a rehersal for the "colours of Malaysia" which was going to be held the day after. the event was cool.. i guess. i didn't went for the evnt as i was in one U with friends wataching Pirated of the Carribean 3: At world's end. It was quite good how johnny depp acted. i laughed at the part where the rock became the crabs. But the kissing part between orlando bloom and keira knightley was kinda lame though. You will know once u read it. After the movie, we hanged out at ss2 murni. and after that asia cafe at subang to play pool n fooseball. and then there left 3 of us(ezriq, mun n i). We had an enjoyable nite.

On sunday, we just stayed in cyberia, took lunch n supper there. in the evening, mun's chief-tenant's boyfriend, aiman bought a new basketball back. So to the court we went. though i couldn't perform 100%, my team won all the games. ^^"

Aiman's back and i think it's time to let go the laptop (:P) . So that's all from me. c ya guys soon~ :P

~>MJ

Why make friends?

According to our famous online encyclopedia, 'el WIKIPEDIA, Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behaviour between two or more humans.

It is undeniable in the fact that the more friends we have, the harder it will be in maintaining it. A lot of time is needed to keep track of friends' life, knowing about how they are doing, and offering a helping hand in times of trouble. Friendship is a bothersome. So why make friends?

REMEMBER. Put in mind that friendship is also a type of relationship. It's just a bit lower level compare to boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. And because it is a relationship, it involves love and commitment between two individuals; you and him/her. If either of you are not putting effort updating each other, as days pass, as time flies, the strength of the bond will become weaker. Unless of course both parties really trusts and have faith with each other. Just like how you put your trust and believes in them. Sometimes we even 'psycho' ourselves that the things we do are the right thing. "BELIEVE" "HAVE FAITH"

There are a few level of friendship; for my case, there's 3:

hi-bye friends(level 3),

potential friends(level 2),

and brotherhood/sisterhood("heng tai zhi mui" in my dictionary)(level 1).

Not sure about you guys and girls la.

Friendship, unlike relationship has their advantages, drawbacks and effects. Advantages that are available to you will depend on the level of friendship that are between you and your fellow mates. If the relationship is very good, you can share with them almost anything. And you will feel at ease, doing what you want to do in front of them; as to them, "you are you". You are not a tool; but a true friend.

Friendship, if fallen into the wrong clutches, is disastrous. There are people who take "friendship"not as a gift but as a tool to achieve what they want. I won't deny that i've never done this before. But it all depends on the situation. Always "give and more and take less". That is true friendship. If a friend takes more than what he gives, then he may just be your enemy. And you have a high chances of falling into a victim. And if you do, you will be fallen into the pits of hell, filled with anger, despair, hatred and maybe not even recognize yourself anymore. You will lose trust in others that treated you well, thinking " they want something from me."

When a friendship ends, the effect will be dependent on the friendship level that are between you and your friend. In level 3 friendship, you can lose a friend and yet almost feel no pain at all. As for level 2, losing them will be like losing a gamble. Because you do not know if they are your friends or enemies. And for level 1, losing them is almost like losing your identity. Well... almost like that. Imagine your best buddy of 10 years making you a scapegoat which ended you up in prison. Or your best buddy cheating on you with your girlfriend? Now ain't that hell? >.<" Friends comes and goes.

As we grow older, our circle of friends grows smaller. I've been there. I'm not the type that can survive alone. Therefore i need friends. Therefore, I am always seeking out new people to meet with. Regardless of their background. Just as long as they do not have a hidden agenda. At least you know that when you are in deep shit, somebody will get a shovel and dig u out of it. :P

Anyway, this should explains why is friendship important and why should we make friends. ~>MJ

True Beauty

True Beauty

by Chad A Booher

Beauty is a thing seldom seen
No one sees it because no one looks
Or at least not in the right place
Beauty is held by all
Within the soul it lies
Waiting to come out to the surface
Only it can't
Beauty is suppressed by the evils of the world
Only love can bring beauty out
Once seen
Beauty never hides again
Not even hatred can deny beauty
Of it's true design
Beauty although possessed by all
Will only ever be truly seen by few
And fewer yet will ever see
One of the most beautiful sights
The beauty held by you

I suddenly thought of this phrase "true beauty" and decided to google it. And it led me to a wedding accessories website. Hmm.... is that an omen? nah~. i'm not to be married till i'm 28 at least. Hopefully by then i'll be financial stable and earning an annual income of RM100K. Then i'd have a son and a daugther. :D

Anyway, enuf crapping for now.. gotta get back to my study. exam in a few more days. can't play now. >.<" I'll blog more after i'm done with my finals.

PS: this is for @nG3L, regardless of what happens, i still think you are beautiful. :)

Am3n

~>MJ

I think I'm gonna be alone again

Sad to say this. But seems like i've been receiving bad omen. If that's true, then i guess that when the time comes, i'll have to let go. They say true love is when your are able to let go, and at the same time willing to suffer for that loss. It is to understand why you lost it. And to tell to yourself that it is for the best of both. Right now, I just don't feel well. Some times i wish these sculptures i built would just crumble and drag me along with them. Feels like hell here. A cold hell.




Am3n
~>MJ

Can you name 10 ppl?

I got this from a bulleting posted up in Friendster. Being bored and finding it interesting. I just took part in it. xD Here's what i think about these 10 ppl in my mind.

1. kah mun
2. jasmine
3. corine
4. sim
5. johnny
6. kelvin
7. ai ling
8. mike
9. kim hang
10. lawrence

How'd u meet 3?
-in class. same groupmate.. was in chee ai ling's gang. xD

What would you do if you had never met
number 1?
-I would never know that my other half actually existed? xD

What would you do if 6 and 2 were
going out?
- i think i'll be shock.

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
-as far i remember, nope... dun think i ever want to.

Where did you meet number 10?
-st3 prom nite(utopia nite rite?)

How do you know 8?
-he just happen to lurk in my class everytime during recess abck in highschool. Cool guy. U can see him on tv8 every sunday 10:30pm. xD

What do you think about 7?
-i scare of her one. Dun wanna make her angry. But she's a nice friend oso.

What would you do if 5 confessed they
loved you?
-sorry johnny, u may be the first guy i met during class in mmu, but i'm not gay. -D' End

A fact/or something about 9
-a reliable guy.

Who is 2 going out with?
-i wish i knew. Maybe it's better not to know. xD

What's 4 do for a living?
-i know he's still a student. Working part time in cyberjaya maybe.

Would you ever live with number 8?
-Of course. Cool guy to be with man. xD

Where does 3 live?
-penang island.

What do you like about number 1?
-this guy can fish almost any chick out. One hell of a sweet talker.

Is 2 your best friend?
-used to... i guess.

Do you miss number 3?
-saying no will be a total lie. She's my daugther~.

What is your opinion of number 5?
-a religious guy.

Is 10 a power ranger?
-i'm not sure. But i know he is semi-otaku. xD

Repost as: "Can you name 10 ppl?"

A lil' bit better

Things just got a lil' bit better. But the nightmare ain't over yet. It's trying to lower my guard down. I just knew it. Had to be careful. One wrong move is all it takes to lose the game.

Anyway, life is a bit clear for me now. I saw the path which i must take. Sadly along the way i had to sacrifice things which are important to me. Few weeks back, i had a Lithuanian friend who sent me an e-book for me to read. It's called "The Alchemist" and is written by Paulo coelho. An interesting book on life. Thanks Dalia. It's an interesting book indeed.

The Alchemist tells the story of a sherperd boy who dreamt of finding a treasure somewhere in the dessert, near the pyramid. That was the second time he dreamt of it and he kept wondering about the message that was in the dream. One day, he visited a town and visited a gypsy who interpreted his dream. He doubted his dream at first but then he met with an old man who happens to be a king. The king told him stories and at the end of the day, he started a long an interesting journey to the dessert. Through his journey, he learnt to listen to the language of the soul, see what others didn't see and understood that everyone has a destiny to fulfill. To know more about the book, i'll suggest u go get it. So happy reading.

After reading this, I rethink about my past, and the future that awaits me. What is my destiny? Where am i suppose to go from here? Only one way to know - Read The Omen.

@m3n.

~> MJ

最近比較煩

Basically this is what i've been going though lately. So many things to thing about. So many things to be troubled with. Sigh~. I'm trying my best to survive though.

Anyway, while doing my work and listening to some old songs from 光良品冠, i stumbled across this nice song. I tried my luck at youtube to see if anyone uploaded this song. And with luck, i just found it. Anyway, enjoy the song. While i'll "enjoy" my suffering >.<" Am3n。 ~>MJ

This just ain't a good day

It's just not a good day. Here's why:

1st: It's a freaking hot day.

2nd: I haven't taken my meal yet.

3rd: I need to study.

4th: I think i need to clean the room again.

5th: I need more time.

6th: I have to finish where i left off.

Dark Dark Gray

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My heart cracked that night. Not sure if it's what you've said. Or is it me. Why did it had to happen. Looking at one way, I might be the one at fault. But was it really me? Was what my feelings tell me wrong? Did i hoped to much? Did i hold on too tight? Or did i left it too loose?

I'm not in pain. So there's nothing to worry about. Just a lil' bit of sorrow within me. Just despair. That's all. You know something? The past has always been a nice no matter how you see it. Even though it was bad, realizing how you've manage to put yourself through those hard times really is motivating enough to keep you moving on. But at times, it might only be how you see things.

This feeling of ours. I'm doubting the reality of it. Is it real? Or is it just me? Within the darkness i lurk, trying to find the light in the dark. The dark light they call it. This is just not right. I'm asking myself again now. What do i long for? What do i wish for? Is this right for me? If it's wrong, then it's time to end it. The suffering is just too much.

One moment i thought i am getting somewhere, the other moment i realized that i'm still in the darkness. No matter how much i tried. May i just am not trying my best. I need to try harder. Or maybe working harder isn't enough as well?

I'm very low in morale now. Can't get myself to bed. Am waiting for the sun to rise and burn these undead bodies of mine, hoping that moment to be the end of my life. How does it feel to only be able to lurk within the shadows? Not being able to feel the sunlight?

This is the end. The sun is rising any moment now. And with this, my night will be over. And maybe that last night of mine will be forgotten by others.
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You readers out there, in case you're wondering what that i typed above was about.... it's a mixture of my feelings right now. Some may be able to get what i'm trying to say. Some will just think negatively at what those typings actually mean. So to make it clear. I'll tell what it's all about. Though i don't think it'll really makes sense even after i explain it. Just doing it for the sake of contenting my soul.

What i wanted to say in those words isn't saying that i'm gonna kill myself. And it's not even saying that I'm a vampire. Nor am I a criminal.

I'm a pessimistic person. A person who holds onto a hope which existence is uncertain. It's okay if i don't discover the certainty of that hope's existence yet. Does that heart exist between us? It if exist, then it will be good. But what if it actually is just fake? Then wouldn't it be wasting time to just believe in that hope? I doubt a lot. There's time when i wish to be certain of the existence of that hope. And this is one of the time.

Aside from that. I'm not really in a good mood. Everything just seems so wrong to me. I know life is not perfect. But right now, it seems that doing nothing will just kill me. I miss her. Wish i'd planned my life earlier.

Somehow, I sense that my fire of hope is burning out. Does she really exist? I might have to extend my studies. Worried i am. If that is to happen, i think i'll just quit and bury myself in the darkness forever.

To my fellow friends:
Don't worry about it. You guys(and gals) know how to get to me. *winks*

-Am3n.

Six weird things about me

Gee...i've been tagged by Hak Jeng to state out 6 weird things about me. And since I those person who likes to share, then i'm gonna expose to my fellow readers about me.

Rules:
Each one starts out by telling 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write (in their own blog) 6 weird things as well and state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave each of them a comment letting them know you tagged them and the cycle goes on.

1. I like to share.
Well, besides my @nG3L and clothings, most of the time I will share with people my stuff. I don't mind borrowing them stuff as long as they return them back still in good condition. I also don't mind sharing my food or drinks with other people as long as they let me do the dividing. And lastly, I like to share my dreams, experience, feelings and life with others. So i guess that's why i blog. Besides to keep track of my past.

2. I believe in the impossible.
I like to believe in those which other people will not dare to believe. I would try my best to achieve those that is impossible. Even though things that are impossible in the end really ended up as impossible. But still i will believe because if i don't who else will? Not gonna elaborate what this means. Some of you readers will understand. Most wouldn't. :D

3. I'm into weird fashion.
I like to be different than others. Because i believe that although we all do share some similarities with each other, at a certain point, there will still be differences among ourselves. Maybe that's why i'm always into weird but acceptable fashions.

I don't do tattoos. Not that i hate them. I just don't see a reason putting a scar on myself with a symbol. Earrings are fine with me. But i prefer only having only one earring and only on one side of my ear. I pierced my left ear once along with my daughter, Corine, at Alamanda CJ. It was a bit scary at first coz i was imagining all that pain that would be flowing into my head. But i was wrong. Before i knew it, my left ear was pierced. I wore that earring for like about 2-3 months only. It all happened because I forgot to put back my earrings after taking it off for 2 days. And when i tried to put it on again, the hole was closed. >.<" During my high school years, i like to spike up my hair. Not into those that looks like punk. More to those anime characters like the saiyans in Dragon Ball. Most probably inspired by Son Gohan of dragon Ball(image below).

Son Gohan Moses Ichimoku Ren

Back then i didn't know what gum, wax or glue were. I only know about hair gel. And boy did i used a lot of it each day. They say that using too much hair gel will make you bald. Well, it's not happening to me. ^^
Currently, i'm into 'emo' hairstyle. My front hair is long and they cover my eyes. But now they only cover the left side of my eye. I think it's most prob inspired by Moses of blood+. It seems to be the trend now since another anime also has a guy with one side of his eyes covered. And i'm refering that to Ichimoku Ren of Jigouku Shoujo.


4. I like to see people smile.
The greatest gift created by HIM would be a smile. Each time i see people smile, something just ticks in my chest and for that short moment, i feel happy. Seeing people smiling at each other is among my favourite thing when i observe people. When a person smile, somehow i can feel peace in my heart. So that's why i like to encourage people to smile. No matter how hard it would be to smile. Though at times, I myself do forget to smile as well. ^^"

5. I cut and trim my nails with my teeth.
Ever since primary school, I've developed a special skill which is to cut my fingernails with my teeth. You readers might say that it's biting and not cutting. Well, you may be correct. But i bit the nails like a scissor cutting a slice of paper into half. Or something like that. Not sure what made me do it. But i've been doing that until recently when i decided to stop this bad habit for hygiene purposes. Anyway, compare to using a nail cutter, I can cut my nails nicely with my teeth and then trim it. It feels better than using a nail cutter in fact. And in case you readers ponder, i do cut my nails during classes. When i feel there's a need to of course. No need the hassle of bringing a nail cutter. And no need to worry of stupid "spot-check" where they will check your fingernails. xD And in case you wonder which teeth i use as a nail cutter, it's my front teeth- the rabbit "teeth".

(PS: That's is not my pic. Just roughly showing where it is. ^^" )

6. I'm nocturnal.
I like to stay up late at night. Somehow i just feel more energetic and alert compare to daytime. Maybe it's the cool weather at night that's affecting me. Most of the time, I would stay up till the morning light shines into my room then only would i jump into bed. There was once when i really sleep my whole daytime away and woke up once the sun is about to set. That habit lasted me for almost a week. Some of my online friends even thought i was really a vampire. At times i wish i was. Since it'll be cool to be one. Or that's what i thought.

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Aite.... so now i'm done with the list of weird things.... finally. Took me 2 hours for this stuff. So erm... wonder who's gonna be tagged by me? Here are the list:

~> *@nG3L*
~> *Robin Wong*
~> *Ee Ling*
~> *Sot Sot*
~> *Kim Hang*
~> *Car Month*

Cleaning up my room

This shall be my first post with pictures taken using a digicam. I'm currently using an old SONY DSC-P43. No complaints about it so far as a consumer.

1st March 2007

I got sick of sneezing for the whole day(eversince i got back from Kuching) and with @nG3L's encouraging words, I made a big decision to clean the room. So I wiped my desks clean, hand-mopped the floor and finally, cleaned the ceiling fan.

It was a 1 hr + task.

One of my problems while cleaning the fan wasn't carrying the ladder from the bottom floor. It was something else.


Notice something missing? If you don't Look carefully between the ladders... nothing in between the legs to support each other~! Geez... And i carried it without realizing. So what's next? find something to tie them up together of course. Sadly they weren't any strings o wires around to tie 'em up.

But guess what i found?

A safety iron bar for preventing those that are sleep on the second floor of the bed from falling down. And how did i put it into good use?

Tadaa~! Now how is that?

After cleaning two of the wings, i took a snap shot of the cleaned wings as well as the condition of the pail.(in the first 4 picture below). I also took picture of the last wing of the fan that i'm suppose to clean(last 2 picture). See how dusty it is?

Must've been ages since it was last cleaned >.<




Anyway, a few hours after i cleaned that fan, I stopped sneezing. So i guess it was the ceiling fan that's making me sneeze. Gee.

During the process of taking this these pictures, something happened to me.

"After taking those pictures, I skipped a step of the ladder and landed with my left leg; forgotten that my left knee cap was injured and not fit for landing. And then, SNAP!; my injured knee snapped and became loose, causing it failing to land me safely. I ended landing and the left side of my body landed on the floor; head landing last gratefully. Either it was my skill or luck. But I thank God my head misses the wall. Else who knows how long am i gonna be on the floor. Anyhow, I was stunned on the floor for like 10-15 secs.... maybe more... with pain vibrating from my knee. For a short moment, I thought I'm gonna lose my left leg. I hardly could move it.
Had to force myself to crawl up and rest for a few minutes before i climbed up again to finished the last wing of the fan. This time, I was very careful to climb up and climb down the ladder. One thing i felt lucky from that incident. The camera that was in my right hand was still in the air. My left leg is still working nicely."

Sometimes... life just ain't lucky for us. But still, look at the bright side. Before this, I has an issue with the ceiling fan. It was two years ago on christmas day and i got my right hand cut by a ceiling fan. I was trying to fold the blanket and raised my hands up when suddenly something banged on my right hand. Miraculously, my hand didn't get chopped off. More than that, it hit my hands and missed my fingers. I am so sure my fingers are going to heaven if the fan slice it. Although it was a deep cut, my hand bleed a little instead of blood spurting out of it(So blood don't spurt out from the hand aye? now i know.). And the picture below is just how it looks like.

Anyway, what i wanted to say is always be cautious; don't be careless. And remember of your weakness and how your surrounding looks like. Always remember~!

~Am3n

My two week break

I'm now blogging from my 2nd home back in Malacca. The trip back from lcct terminal on Tuesday morning was smooth. Sadly i wasn't able to catch up with my tutorial class today. dang... so gotta go for replacement tomorrow morning 10am.

Anyway, here's life back Kuching since i came back on 14th February till i depart on 27th February.
14th - Vday
Met Tie at LccT. Aside from that, I also met Fabian Kueh and Sin yi and waved to each other. Wanted to talk with them but then when i approach them, suddenly they walk away. >.< style="font-weight: bold;">First, u gotta take the equipments out( the jack, spanar, spare tyre and err...a big sledge hammer(if there's any). If you don't have a spare tyre, Pray to GOD that your cellphone works~!
Second, find the place to place the jack. For your info, you can't just put the jacks anywhere u like. According to Kim Hang la. Else your car gonna end up torn into two. So it took us about 5-10 minutes just to find that flat surface below the car.
Third, jack it up! Yes... jack it up.. but not too up. Coz you gotta loosen the nuts at the tyres later on. Make sure that the tyre that you are taking out is still touching the ground.
Fourth, open the rim cover. If there's no rim cover, Proceed to Fifth.
Fifth, loosen the nuts. Use the spanar to loosen up the nuts. When you're able to turn the nuts with your hand, it's time to skip to the next nut. You need the energy to loosen up the remaining nuts. Keep one thing in mind when using the spanar. You DO NOT use your hand to un-spanar the nuts. Well, unless you're superman of course. *^^* So this is where you get ur sledge hammer and hit it on the end of the spanar that is tucked on the nut. If you don't have one.... here's wat u can do:
Option 1: get something heavy and hit the end of the spanar.
Option 2: Jump and land hard onto the end of the spanar. MAKE SURE IT IS A DIRECT
HIT. You'll have a chance of causing the nut shape to be blunt and harder to be
loosen later on.
Sixth, you have loosen all the nuts. So take out that tyre and put in the spare tyre.
Seventh, screw it up. Again, use a hammer or something heavy to hit onto the end of the spanar, or jump onto the end of the spanar to tighten up the nuts. To make sure that the nut tight, you will hear a "krak tak tak" sound. One ktt should be enough. To be in a safe place, make it a KTTTTT or KTT KTT.
Eight, throw all the stuff back to the boot of the car. Clean up.
Ninth, if you're driving using the spare tyre, DO NOT drive above 80 km/h(Malaysian Speed). You won't want to get a puntured tyre twice in a day now would you? Worst, you might have a chance of having a blown tyre and ended up in a car accident.

Use a double-signal light if you have to. Not sure if it's okay to do that; but i did it that night. And driving at 40 kph. >.<" Anyway, that was my 1 hr of fixing a car with punctured tyre. Was my second time only actually ^^". 17th - CNY Eve Stay at home, Online, family dinner at 2nd Big Uncle's house. Was okay. :) Packed and moved to 'summer house' for CNY. 18th - 1st day of CNY Stayed at home. Was stresful.. dono why. At night, persuaded my dad to let me go back "online". Thank God i did. And am happy i did. Though was still a bit restless. 19th - 2nd day of CNY First visiting Went to Janice's place with Jinn fu "guiding" me. Thanx dude, I had a hell of an experience with your crazy signalling and sudden turn of direction. I nearly had a car kiss my ass and nearly overturned my car. Geezz.... Afternoon came and i join my family visiting my maternal grandparents and uncles... then friends of my dad. Was okay... no comment. 20th - Second visiting Joined Daniel, Mike, Ivan and Alvin for CNY visiting. Went to a few houses. The most surprising house i went to was Jacqueline Lau's. >.<" That was because were suppose to go to Jackline Ng's house(younger sister of Magdelene Ng, who used to be our temporary teacher back then teaching maths). As soon as i saw Jacq's face, my mind started to "short-circuit". Things just didn't make sense for the next 5 minutes. I got mind-F. Was trying to draw out the connection of Jackline Ng and Jacqueline Lau. Both were totally different people. And how did Jacq Lau ended up as Jackline? I was saying to myself "OMFG. I've been chatting with Jackline all this while? No way~! I'm so F sure it's Jacq that i've been chating with. But this is.. this is.. Zzzz... Then i got braindead and sat at Jacq's place not knowing what to say. Only eating and drinking the entire 1 hour plus until Wei Thian came. Jacq's been a nice host. Keep refilling Mango juice for me ^^. Thanx JacQ! After that we head to Ivan C's place where we entered his room with old English style furnishing. "Lepak-ed" there till 7 or 8pm lidat till Frankie n Grace came. 21st - THE THOMIAN CNY VISITING Aside from that we had our annual CNY visiting session. 13 ppl joined the gathering. There was those from the dinner except for kim hang and then there's this girl called lydia(1985 from st mary which daniel bring) which tag along with us for the whole visiting. At Chok's place, we learned to play bridge. Was really fun; with Chok as the host of course. Too bad i had to drive that day. T_T Chok took out Chivas Regal and i can't drink coz i'm driving. I get drunk easily by the way. Called it a day off after that. At night, had Mahjong n BlackJack session at my place. Overall, it was nice. Quite sad u're not able to join us... :P oh well.. next time maybe? My frens took some pics so i'm now waiting for the pics to be delivered to me. 22nd - Squash n Norbit Joined Chok, Hak Jeng, Daniel, Mike and Ivan for squash that morning. Was fun. I finally get to sweat. Then we had brunch together eating kolo mee. Only Daniel "bei cham"(don't mix in hokkien), choosing to eat 'kueh chap' instead of kolo mee. Then we planned out to watch movie that nite in a big gang. Went for Norbit at Star Cineplex in a gang of 14 people consisting of 5 schools. There's Me, Mike, Ivan, Daniel, Hak Jeng, Chih Kok, Alvin(Thomians), Lydia(St Mary), JacQ, Pui Joo(ST3), Wei Thian,Frankie(Green Road), Grace and Gloria(Chung Hua Middle School no. 1). The first ever mix outing among kuching kias.

23rd - Footsal
Just for that game, I bought a new shoe at teh price of RM12.50. China brand. not a bad shoe since it was the same shoe that i wore to my high school and played basketball with it. 8:30pm futsal at Sentosa there was awesome. First time playing and boy it was andreline pumping. Di lots of mistakes though. ^^" I was the goal keeper for the first hour. There were lots og goals i couldn't saved. Then I made an own goal while trying to save the ball. >.< Not only that, I had a chance to redempt myself but I missed it. Just couldn't get the ball in. It was SO CLOSE~! Grrr... Oh well. It was fun eventhough i had blisters on both my feet and i can hardly walk. Had to admit. Then head to BDC expert for a drink with hak jeng who's leaving on the next day.

24th - 26th
Can't really remember what i did on that day. But I do remember @nG3L coming back to me on that 25th nite. Thank you GOD~! xD Was a nice chat. Though not as good as last time. Thing have just gotten better for me. I'm so grateful of that.

27th
9:20am flight from KCH to KUL Lcct Terminal was smooth. Everything was okay. Reached Malacca at 4:30pm where we stopped by at Jaya Jusco to buy battery charger n battery for my dad's digital camera which i took through my mum. Gonna start blogging and focus more on my studies now. No more gaming. That's all I can say and i'll do it. And May GOD help me.

B4 I end this. I thank all of you people whom I've met in this whole two weeks back in Kuching. Whether i know you or not, it doesn't matter. You have played an important role in my daily life. Domo Arigatou.

Am3n.

Thank you

I'm not sure if she read my posts or was it HIS will. But i'm so thankful that i finally chatted with her today. It really feel nice to be chatting with her again ever since that incident. The waves not over yet though. But I'm happy since i know that I still have her.

Thanks for being there. You know who you are. I really appreciated it very much. ^^

Am3n

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What breed of Puppy are you

I found out about this link from a friend's myspace. Tried it and find it kinda amusing. Since i'm a dog fan. :D

You Are a German Shepherd Puppy

Intelligent, quick witted, and a bit aggressive. You've got the jaw power to take a bite out of anyone you choose.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

Now how true is that? xD

I miss you

I do not know when will i ever see her again. Honestly, I miss her. I still remember the first time i met her. According to her, that was the 2nd time she was using skype. My first msg to her was a respond to her status in her skype profile that time. I did thought much at first. Just treating her like any other mysterious online frens. But that changed... and i'm not certain if it's for the worst or for the better, but it was sweet. I almost could feel her.

Despite the advices that were given to me by friends, I'm still sitting here, wanting to believe. I'm sure i've tried my best. And I'll let HIM guide me and help me do the rest. Two weeks from now; No... I'll give it until February ends. Then i'll let this fairy tale slowly fade away, leaving only traces of sweet memories. I'll seal the chain in a safe place. And make it the prove of her existence; of my existence; and most important of all, the existence of those sweet times we were willing to sacrifice for.

I'm going to KL later on to meet with my best buddy and a few frens plus settling things which i didn't manage to settle last week-shopping for CNY clothes. Will be taking the 9am bus, most probably. So going to take a bath then head straight to bed after i finish blogging.


Before i end this post, there's one question which i'm really curious of. Why is it that when you think it's about to go for the better, life turns the other way around?
My answer-that's life; it's always uncertain. You lose some, you win some.


Am3N

Where to dine?

This poll is strictly for thomians participating in the gathering only. If anyone that are not thomian wishes to join, errr.... contact me. thanx

Where to eat Where to Gather for dinner on 16th February 2007? hai pa wang hong kong noodle(sarberkas) ABC rockroad Seafood Open air BDC one(RH plaza there) Satay house Lok thian Civic Centre Hartz view results

What i feel today

Today, I feel

->lonely

->sad

->lost

->betrayed

->heartbroken

->stabbed with a dozen silver arrows

->kicked from heaven into hell

->that my world has ended

->empty

->like giving up

->objectiveless

->that i'm filled with mistakes

->like getting runned over by a truck

->like falling down into a bottomless pit


Am3N.

She is the most important person to me . . .

Me n my BB @nG3L have sucessfully made it till the new year~! Hopefully things will go smoother from now onwards. She's been very ill recently so all i could do for now is pray for her to get well soon and send smses containing encaouragement to get well to her.

Somehow, I miss her a lot. Haven't been really chatting with her for almost a week. Really am worried sick of her. It's just so stupid that i cant be there to take care of her at this time. =="

25 more weeks to go. Hope all will be smooth.

@nG3L, if u happen to read this, u're the most important person to me. Now and forever. Until this heart breaks and stop working like an old clock.

Sometimes, i think that i'm too foolish; but yet i still go for it; sumthing that i believed in.

Am3N.