Doing Stupid things

Have you ever do things which causes you problems in your life later on? Like you cheated in ur midterm and when final comes, you couldn't do it cause you just don't have the knwoledge for it. Sounds familiar doesn't it?

What is happening to me right now is that I've gamed too much. I lost control of myself over game addiction. And i'm about to lose someone special to me, lose my freedom and my very own soul. What am i to do about it. I really ponder. If GOD would help me right this moment, I really pray. Pray that i'll not lose her, pray that everything will still be on time for me. Pray that luck is still on my side. The sacrifice for those that i prayed for; anything GOD wants from me.

The more i think of my problems now, the more scared i am of life. I really have tons of things to do. Furthermore, I'm very left out behind already. I wonder if i'll ever catch up with them? I'm worried that i'll be left behind. Worry that i'll be forgotten. Because I do not play any part in their life.

This is the life of me. Even though how much i tried, in the end, i'll stop trying. my wheel of life stops rolling, and my faith crushed.

Am3n.