Girl of my dreams

There's this girl whom i met back in August 2000 at a library. First time meeting her was like just general friends. My first impression on her....well, actually i didn't have a good impression of her i think. To me, she's just an ordinary girl. Just a friend. She would help me out with my maths when she was at the library. Then she showed interest in the language i was interested in as well: nihon-go(japanese language). I remember the days when she would spent her studying time to get me to teach her japanese. She wasn't a fast learner. So i printed out a paper with all the hiragana characters as well as the phonetics for her to refer to. Days later she wrote out the hiraganas with the phonetics in a fullscape paper and pass it to me. On the paper as well was her name in hiragana; "mi-n-n". I didn't realise how minn would have changed my life. At first, i thought she was just some ordinary teenage girl that i would meet and end up at most as friends. But there was more from her. As soon as she got my house number, she would call me at times telling me about our tuition events. Months past and one night while at a tuition centre, i suddenly go jealous of her talking to a bunch of guys who was from her brother school. Actaully i wouldn't have gotten jealous...i think..if my classmates weren't disturbing me n her. Somehow it just seems that God was trying to match us up. Coz that nite after i got back home, i tried calming myself but failed. In the end, I made a call and said "aishiteru" to her. Took me lots of courage to do that. Really alot. After saying that, i bid her goodnite and tried to catch sum sleep. Didn't really got enuf sleep that nite if i could recall correctly. Coz i think i was "fishing" in class the next day.

During my days with Minn, when i didn't bother to care for her, she would just be there, sitting beside me n smiling at me. Her smile bring me warmth. And sumhow her smile brings me a sense of freshness. Being with her made me felt happy. Also, she was a "turn on" for me. But i didn't ake her as anything despicable. Our friendship stage didn't last long. That nite after failing to visit our tutor's house coz he wasn't at home, we walked on the overhead bridge to reach the other side of the road where we would wait there for our parents to bring us back. Rite the on top of the bridge, she held my hand. I was shocked at first but then i realise that she may have like me. Minn's hand was small n soft as silk. Since then, i didn't let go off her hands not until we reach the other end of the bridge. And it was that nite that we officially became boyfriends n girlfriends. But everthing seems too fast.

First 2 months was going well. We chatted mostly on the phone coz i wasn't good in this kind of stuff yet. Minn was my first love. And i tried my best to make her happy. But after the government exam ended, we rarely met each other. And that's when problems started to occur. I haven't gotten my driving license yet and even if i had i would not be able to drive coz my parents would not permit me to. They say that i'm too reckless. *But up till now, the only accident i had was hitting a wall when reversing my car. Been driving, speeding and wat more? Racing as well.* That day, I met her ex while on the way to sugarbun with her. I didn't really notice it was her ex till she actually told me. And ever since then she would be talking to me mostly about her ex. What he did and many more. Hearing that, I started to lose confidence. I tried many ways to get through this challange; i cared for her more, called her but all was useless. She just thought that i was trying to be him. She even call me bad names and sumhow i was stupid enuf to be able to stand her.

About 3 months later, we broke up. She declared it. Coz she said that we were incompatible. Luckily i wasn't really heartbroken. Coz the loss seems so little. I did try to patch back but then fail. About a week later, we got back together again. That was after i drove (with my buddy accompanying) to her house. Things got better then and i started being myself again. I listened to what she wants n tried my best to give it to her. There was once when she wanted a soft toy and i searched the whole kuching for it without any result. Lucky for me(or her), i had a classmate studying in kl that time and he saw that doll and sent it to me. *Really thank him for that.* As soon as i got the doll, i manage to get my friends to bring me to her place since it was raining heavily. I lent my friend's umbrella n got them to park at the corner of the junction so she wouldn't see them. That time she was angry of me for sumthing which i've forgotten. Waiting outside the house, i called her home using my mobilephone and told her i was outside with a "gift". She didn't believe me at first but then when she looked outside, there i was. I may have misunderstood her words that day but as soon as i gave her the gift, i left. That nite, she called me, thank me for the gift and then forgave me.

In late April 2001, I received a letter from a campus in another state accepting me to futrther my studies there. Though the course i applied wasn't the course i wanted, it was a degree and i had to choose between a college o a university. Minn did apply for that U as well. And that's why i didn't want to go to that college. Even if it was in a more develop state and with lots of pretty girls. My heart was with Minn already. On the last day i before i left for my U, i was suppose to be out with Minn but then coz of my foolishness i drove my friends as well. And wat's worst? I nearly got Minn in an accident coz i was very anxious in getting Minn back home before dinner in order to prevent her from being scold by her parents. * Minn is the youngest in the family with 2 elder brothers and her family is strict.* If i got minn in an accident, i would sure die than living. Well , I knew that our relationship since then would not be very stable cz after my departure to my new U, we seldom see each other. But we called each other. Though she would mostly call from public phones coz she dun want her parents to know about her having a bf.

Late May, Minn got offered by a government U which is near my state. But not for long because she got another offer for overseas studying medical in Russia. My first tormenting cry was during this time. That week i got her call where she sounded very unhappy, I immediately asked my senior(a housemate who's very friendly and crazy) to help me buy a ticket to that state on that very weekend. Everything was perfect that morning. I left early so i wouldn't missed my bus. But then unexpected events occur. That day hapens to be one of the state's event and the road was blocked. After waiting 15 minutes and still no movement, i paid the taxi driver and then rushed to the bus station. Though i've been in that state for like almost a month, I dun really know the roads there. But somehow God helped me and i manage to reach the bus station and got onto my bus before it leaves................to be continued.