NIGHTMARE~!!!

Tomorrow's my 2nd test for TCE2311- data communications and telecommunicationsand i've only studies 2 chapter of 8 chapters. But wait.. this ain't my nightmare.

So what happen was this. I had a dream. After finishing 2 chapters, i decided to get a rest. Then next thing i know i close the lights and head to bed, decided to wake up the next morning to do my revision and settle my other stuff. And this is where the nightmare comes....

I dreamt i was in a beach.(sematan maybe..) playing along the beach in a singlet and short pants. My age.. around 10-13 i guess. At that beach, i was running away from sumthing. Can't really remember. Then i saw my parents and all those fear just vanish. Next thing that happens i became an adult. And in the car was me and my siblings. Driving around the hillside where we. Those rocky hills. It was dark. Really dark and there was no street lights at all.

We were on our way to have dinner with my parents i think. Coz at first i remember it was my mum who was driving. Then all of a suddenthe driver became my bro. >.<" Spooky. What's worst was he got the car gone into a big deep drain. And i tot it was hopeless. We're all going to drown. "Damn.. told you to look properly on the road already. Can't you drive a bit slow?". "but there was no road at all," he answered. My younger sis were trying to stop us but no avail. "then why the heck you drive in there? give me the steering wheel." "no. I can drive." And somehow the drain becomes smaller and shallower and he manage to drive us out and and head for the hill on our way out. And that is when i woke up. Or was there more?

The future..is dark for me. Tat's how i see it. I dunno about you readers out there but i can't really imagine me myself getting a job. I don't see anything that im capable of except papers and pencils. Wonder why i'm studying in this subject? Still wondering. What was my reason of studying it? I guess i've forgotten.

When i awoke from my dream just now. The first thing that hit me is my parents. Could be because my family is the most important asset in my life. I'd always prayed for them every night before ihead for bed but somehow, i stopped. What's happening to me? WHat did i lost? Which part went wrong>? Which item did i not bring along with me? Man i was in total chaos for like 10 seconds. Fear ran thru my spines for a while there. But i'm okay now. Guess it's those moody days that got me into this. Had been stressful for the past 2 weeks. Still a bit stress about my TOS assignment. I dunno hwo to save my ass from the coding. Dun wanna fail anymore. Dun wanna score low anymore. Wish i have someone there to guide me.

Currently listening to jas' song. (Yes. she's my first love. I loved her dearly. But now only as a friend. I have a virtual person whom i haven't met yet, Mich. she could be real, then again she may just be fake. I do not know.) Boy does her song clips really decrease all those stress and fear within me. Thanx jas.

Should stop for now. I just tot i should blog this out because i dun want to waste my time just slacking off in DotA and not writing a part of my life. I want to remember this day when i have this nightmare and be able to learn from it, and then laugh about it.


PS:
To ya all peeps that are have a bad day, get your grip on. Then pray and wish your self good luck before heading on your ways. That includes me of course. Pray to GOD guys n girls... HE helps~!

Am3n.

"wo hai bu xiang sui"

Guess u readers might be wondering what the title above means. In mandarin, it means I still don't wanna sleep.

Right now my body is tired; mind's exhausted as well. Can say that this s the first time i've felt pure tireness after years living. Forgotten have i of when i felt that tired. Maybe when i was still a kid? Hmm...

Lots of things to do and lots of things to rush this week and next week. Life is gonna start to be hectic. Wish i can pull myself together right now and make myself 'serious'. It's so hard for me to be serious in life. There's always those milestones that'll stop my wheel of life from rolling. In the end, i'd be stuck in the middle of nowhere, far away from others that it'll be impossible for me to catch up. I should be sleeping now... I guess i will. But the desire of wanting to see her and chat with her is keeping me from sleeping. Been 72 hours. I guess our story ends here.

Am3n.