Sigh . . . .
This guy is bored,
This guy is injured,
This guy is frustrated,
This guy is confused,
He's haywired,
Going insane,
Feeling lonely,
lame,
bored,
regretful,
and most importantly; LOST.
But he tells himself,
CHEER UP!
Why make today a lame day?
You can do better!
You are unique!
You are special!
You are smart!
You are GOD-LIKE!
If you're in pain, show it!
If you're hurt, feel it!
If you think you're living a shitty life, change it!
Go make a difference!
Stop being an e-mo lame-ass and start being productive!
And so here I am... blogging once more. xD
From now on, I'll start to blog again.
The End.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
May Fishing Trip Diary
Mon, 26 may 2008, 2238hrs
Going out with dad, bro, 2nd uncle, an Eastern Time reporter, Professor Dr Chong, Uncle Eng, Shui and their friends for this 3 day 2 night fishing trip. Left boat club at 6.29pm and will b arriving at our destination around 4.30am. Had a bad mood earlier. I'm okay now after taking an earlier nap. Kinda tired now. Need to sleep and get ready for video shooting tomorrow.
Tues, 27 may 2008, 5.30am
Reach destination around 4am. Dad made the first catch of the day which was either a trevally o tuna that weigh around 4~5 kg. Bait used is frozen squid.
Wed,28 may 2008, 0120hrs
End of day two for me. We're now at the mackerel fishing spot. uncle Eng, uncle Seh Foh, dad n my bro is still fishing outside while the rest are asleep. Today has been a tiring day 4 me. One of the cause is the hot afternoon and the 1 metre wave which was rocky and it make me felt giddy. Then again it could cause by me going into the hot deck and then going back into the chilling cabin that made me felt sick. To several naps that afternoon and only recovered after 4pm.
Today got quite a lot of big catch. I missed recording the afternoon fish session as i was in bed. Fishes caught were mangrove jack, red snapper, trevallies, juvenile GT, groupers, herrings and mackerel. Uncle Eng caught the first mackerel. Damn 7 tired adi. Nite.
Wed, 28 may 2008, 1055hrs
It was almost sunrise when i was woken up by the freezing temperature in the cabin. So i force myself onto the deck and found dad, uncle Shui, Eng and 'cikgu' catching squids. Squids were all over d place.
We r now on our way back to the boat club. Overall, everybody manage to land at least a fish. 2nd uncle got the biggest grouper n dog shark while 'cikgu' landed the biggest red snapper. As for me, i landed a grouper n a few herrings or sardine.
Estimated Time of Arrival to reach boat club 6 hrs. So we'll be reaching around 4:30pm.
Fri, 30 May 2008, 1428hrs
Is has been more than 24hrs since the fishing trip. To put a close to this diary, we reached the boat club around 4:30pm. Total catch should be more than 30 fishes.
Attached below are the catch of the 3 days 2 night trip.
Going out with dad, bro, 2nd uncle, an Eastern Time reporter, Professor Dr Chong, Uncle Eng, Shui and their friends for this 3 day 2 night fishing trip. Left boat club at 6.29pm and will b arriving at our destination around 4.30am. Had a bad mood earlier. I'm okay now after taking an earlier nap. Kinda tired now. Need to sleep and get ready for video shooting tomorrow.
Tues, 27 may 2008, 5.30am
Reach destination around 4am. Dad made the first catch of the day which was either a trevally o tuna that weigh around 4~5 kg. Bait used is frozen squid.
Wed,28 may 2008, 0120hrs
End of day two for me. We're now at the mackerel fishing spot. uncle Eng, uncle Seh Foh, dad n my bro is still fishing outside while the rest are asleep. Today has been a tiring day 4 me. One of the cause is the hot afternoon and the 1 metre wave which was rocky and it make me felt giddy. Then again it could cause by me going into the hot deck and then going back into the chilling cabin that made me felt sick. To several naps that afternoon and only recovered after 4pm.
Today got quite a lot of big catch. I missed recording the afternoon fish session as i was in bed. Fishes caught were mangrove jack, red snapper, trevallies, juvenile GT, groupers, herrings and mackerel. Uncle Eng caught the first mackerel. Damn 7 tired adi. Nite.
Wed, 28 may 2008, 1055hrs
It was almost sunrise when i was woken up by the freezing temperature in the cabin. So i force myself onto the deck and found dad, uncle Shui, Eng and 'cikgu' catching squids. Squids were all over d place.
We r now on our way back to the boat club. Overall, everybody manage to land at least a fish. 2nd uncle got the biggest grouper n dog shark while 'cikgu' landed the biggest red snapper. As for me, i landed a grouper n a few herrings or sardine.
Estimated Time of Arrival to reach boat club 6 hrs. So we'll be reaching around 4:30pm.
Fri, 30 May 2008, 1428hrs
Is has been more than 24hrs since the fishing trip. To put a close to this diary, we reached the boat club around 4:30pm. Total catch should be more than 30 fishes.
Attached below are the catch of the 3 days 2 night trip.
Friday, October 05, 2007
Day 1 of Bursa Pursuit
Erm.... i've come out from the silence....for a while. And seems like there are big changes in posting up stuff... either that it's my browser's fault ==" Having trouble with posting pics on the post and i nid to use codes instead of clicks now. geez... Anyway...
There's two things i'd like to share today.
1st: I'll be in KL to attend an 8-day course which starts from 13th Oct until 29th Oct. Heng tai, i'll contact you guys when i'm able to meet up with you guys. My homework for that course just started today and i have to passed it up on this coming Monday. ^^"
2nd: Just thought of sharing this game with you all. In case you guys never heard of it. It's called BursaPursuit.
There's two things i'd like to share today.
1st: I'll be in KL to attend an 8-day course which starts from 13th Oct until 29th Oct. Heng tai, i'll contact you guys when i'm able to meet up with you guys. My homework for that course just started today and i have to passed it up on this coming Monday. ^^"
2nd: Just thought of sharing this game with you all. In case you guys never heard of it. It's called BursaPursuit.
Just go google "Bursa Pursuit" and it'll take you there. So what is this thing that i so wanted to share about? Well, it's an online web-based stock market game. From what i know, this site has been up recently and there's ads about it on radios. So what's cool about this game? Basically you signed up to play, either solo or gang up with a few friends to trade stocks and rank up. And what more better when they offer you RM100,000 (hard cash) to you if u happen to be the winner. Another feature is that the information, the stock updates are all based on the real Malaysia Bursa Stock (formerly known as KLSE-Kuala Lumpur Stock Exchange). It's really an awesome and educational game among all the games i've played before. I got into this game after an introduction from my junior Thomian, Bryan Tong.
Since i just started today, i still don't quite have a clear picture on how to play stock market. But i'm seriously devoting myself into learning it. From my research, i found out that Even Australia high school students are exposed to this trading stuff..... then again if i recall correctly, even neopets have it. ^^"
But this Bursa Pursuit is far more different that those i've played. It's the real deal. Only thing fake is the $ i have in hand. The starting $ for anyone who signed up for this game is $250,000. That's a lot ain't it?
My progress so far is that i earned a gross profit of RM1.18 from 10 units of BJCORP. My next market watch will be:
1) Silver-WA
2) BJCORP
3) HSBC-C2
4) AIRASIA-CA
5) PBBANK-01
So who's interested in this? I'm thinking of making a league for it. Let me know so we can gang up and earn that RM100,000.
PS: Angel, how's everything there? All good?
Signing of,
~> MJ
Since i just started today, i still don't quite have a clear picture on how to play stock market. But i'm seriously devoting myself into learning it. From my research, i found out that Even Australia high school students are exposed to this trading stuff..... then again if i recall correctly, even neopets have it. ^^"
But this Bursa Pursuit is far more different that those i've played. It's the real deal. Only thing fake is the $ i have in hand. The starting $ for anyone who signed up for this game is $250,000. That's a lot ain't it?
My progress so far is that i earned a gross profit of RM1.18 from 10 units of BJCORP. My next market watch will be:
1) Silver-WA
2) BJCORP
3) HSBC-C2
4) AIRASIA-CA
5) PBBANK-01
So who's interested in this? I'm thinking of making a league for it. Let me know so we can gang up and earn that RM100,000.
PS: Angel, how's everything there? All good?
Signing of,
~> MJ
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Fly me to the polaris
Just feel like putting in some stuff here today and heading back to bed after that. Below is a short music clip from the movie "Fly me to the Polaris". It's one of the nice sad movie in my own opinion. The song is called 烛光(pinyin:zhu-guang), candlelight in chinese sung by Richie Ren.
Life is so lonely lately. Each time i lay on my bed, there's this person whom i've been thinking of. I wonder how many person feel the same way as i am now. Sigh~
Anyway, hope u enjoyed it. :)
Oyasumi~
~>MJ
Life is so lonely lately. Each time i lay on my bed, there's this person whom i've been thinking of. I wonder how many person feel the same way as i am now. Sigh~
Anyway, hope u enjoyed it. :)
Oyasumi~
~>MJ
Friday, July 27, 2007
Busy busy busy
I know it's been quite some time i didn't blog. Been busy, mates. And been able to use the computer for about 2 hours per day for personal usage nia. So you guys be patient ya. I'll update as soon as i can steal some time. :)
Anyway, recently i bought a RED item that costs RM280. Anyone can guess what it is? Those who knows.... shhh~~~ xD.
I'll post up the clue somewhere soon.
Heading to bed now. Nites all. God Bless~!.
~>MJ
Anyway, recently i bought a RED item that costs RM280. Anyone can guess what it is? Those who knows.... shhh~~~ xD.
I'll post up the clue somewhere soon.
Heading to bed now. Nites all. God Bless~!.
~>MJ
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Re-Cap of 6 days ago
Been days since i've blogged. A few things had happened here and there. Coincidences are happening and they led me to think of what the other me in another parallel world is doing. If he is the better me, i bet he has already founf what he had been searching for and am in another country right now, fulfilling all his promises which he had made. Then he'd be more suitable for the title "Moses" rather than me, since of course he'll be truly a leader.
But what about the worst me? hmm... I guess i'd would be a triad leader in Kuching by now and am fighting with the cops now. Maybe that other me is already dead. God knows. ^^"
A heng tai smsed me and then called me yesterday. Got me really freaked out. Guess the facts of his life must've been harsh for him to accept that. "Slimy people"..if you listened to Hitz FM this morning then you'd know what does "slimy" means. Maybe some of you already knew. To put you readers out of the blue, "slimy people" according to JJ n Rudy (Hitz FM DJs) are people who steal other people's partner. Be it girlfriend, boyfriend, wife or husband. These types of people whom i think deserve to be despised the most. What do you guys think?
Anyway, What i really wanted to blog about today is regarding coincidences. To my best buddies and heng tai, my birthday turned out to be quite a surprise after all. That 4th july evening, my friend called me to have a drink session with them. just a few friends together. I knew it was my birthday that day. But didn't expect for daniel, a person whom i've known for 14 years to be planning all this for me. Summore i let them waited me for 2 hrs plus as i had to go and picked up my family who came back from Singapore. I felt touched. T_T Thanks man~!
Anyway, after the birthday song, and cut cake session, I got a call from M-chan. She tried to call my handphone but i left it in the car. ^^" So she got through me via Daniel. that was another unexpected thing... for her to call me and wish me. now here's when the coincidence happen. After that call, the waitress at that cafe went up stage and sang harlem yu's "Qing Fei De Yi". Deep inside me was like ..."WTF~!?#$@#" coz that was the song which i sang to M-chan. Is that a sign again? I told myself this, "it's just a lame coincidence." So here I am.. blogging about it. And then thinking of that old days. But i'm already over it. What i wasnted then was to meet with M-chan and see how is she doing back in Kuching. I got her number, but i can't find a reason to make that call.
That's all for now. The remaining days were just work, eat, sleep, dota. well, except for a particular night which I hanged out with Silas and Ek Zing. Was fun being back with them. Although there are some incompatibality at times, but in the end, we still mix quite well. After this friday, Silas will be to KL and GOD knows when i'm gonna see him. Well, I think i'll see him soon snce he's only flying to KL. Only think have to think is zing who;s flying back to U.S. 2nd August. that one i lagi tak tau bila akan jumpa dia lagi. ^^" Gonna miss his "Yen Wang" symbol~. Lolz...
To those friends who were there to celebrate with me, without you guys, i dun think things will be that cool. Below are the list of people whom i wanted to thank.
1. Yang Kah Mun -> First guy to sms, clal and blog to wish me happy birthday.
2. Daniel Liew 3 E, Alvin Wong and Ah Hong -> Master planner and the helpers.
3. Chok -> thanks for the "punishment" Thanks Daniel again for reducing the severity of the punishment. xD
4. My family (mum, sis, corine, ?) ->thanks for wishing me and calling/sms me. Without you girls, I wouldn't be where i am now.
5. 5sc2 gang(Kim Hang, Ek Zing, Silas & Amy) -> thanks for being the gang where i always go lepak at during recess period. xD Always wanted to be a level lower so can hang out with you guys the whole class period. But i just wasn't able to make that decision. ^^"
6. To the cyberians(Su Huan, Sim, MK) and malacans(...), tq tq~! ^@^
7. To M-chan, didn't expect you to call. and to thank you, i place you at number 7(your favourite number).
8. For those whom i left out your name, you guys/gals still play an important part in my life. Coz without you guys, my path taken will be in another direction.
My words to you all. Stay cool, live your live well, chill out when you're down and if you need something to light your candle, I sell lighters here. xD RM1.30 per lighter. Cheap cheap nia xD.
Am3n.
~>MJ
But what about the worst me? hmm... I guess i'd would be a triad leader in Kuching by now and am fighting with the cops now. Maybe that other me is already dead. God knows. ^^"
A heng tai smsed me and then called me yesterday. Got me really freaked out. Guess the facts of his life must've been harsh for him to accept that. "Slimy people"..if you listened to Hitz FM this morning then you'd know what does "slimy" means. Maybe some of you already knew. To put you readers out of the blue, "slimy people" according to JJ n Rudy (Hitz FM DJs) are people who steal other people's partner. Be it girlfriend, boyfriend, wife or husband. These types of people whom i think deserve to be despised the most. What do you guys think?
Anyway, What i really wanted to blog about today is regarding coincidences. To my best buddies and heng tai, my birthday turned out to be quite a surprise after all. That 4th july evening, my friend called me to have a drink session with them. just a few friends together. I knew it was my birthday that day. But didn't expect for daniel, a person whom i've known for 14 years to be planning all this for me. Summore i let them waited me for 2 hrs plus as i had to go and picked up my family who came back from Singapore. I felt touched. T_T Thanks man~!
Anyway, after the birthday song, and cut cake session, I got a call from M-chan. She tried to call my handphone but i left it in the car. ^^" So she got through me via Daniel. that was another unexpected thing... for her to call me and wish me. now here's when the coincidence happen. After that call, the waitress at that cafe went up stage and sang harlem yu's "Qing Fei De Yi". Deep inside me was like ..."WTF~!?#$@#" coz that was the song which i sang to M-chan. Is that a sign again? I told myself this, "it's just a lame coincidence." So here I am.. blogging about it. And then thinking of that old days. But i'm already over it. What i wasnted then was to meet with M-chan and see how is she doing back in Kuching. I got her number, but i can't find a reason to make that call.
That's all for now. The remaining days were just work, eat, sleep, dota. well, except for a particular night which I hanged out with Silas and Ek Zing. Was fun being back with them. Although there are some incompatibality at times, but in the end, we still mix quite well. After this friday, Silas will be to KL and GOD knows when i'm gonna see him. Well, I think i'll see him soon snce he's only flying to KL. Only think have to think is zing who;s flying back to U.S. 2nd August. that one i lagi tak tau bila akan jumpa dia lagi. ^^" Gonna miss his "Yen Wang" symbol~. Lolz...
To those friends who were there to celebrate with me, without you guys, i dun think things will be that cool. Below are the list of people whom i wanted to thank.
1. Yang Kah Mun -> First guy to sms, clal and blog to wish me happy birthday.
2. Daniel Liew 3 E, Alvin Wong and Ah Hong -> Master planner and the helpers.
3. Chok -> thanks for the "punishment" Thanks Daniel again for reducing the severity of the punishment. xD
4. My family (mum, sis, corine, ?) ->thanks for wishing me and calling/sms me. Without you girls, I wouldn't be where i am now.
5. 5sc2 gang(Kim Hang, Ek Zing, Silas & Amy) -> thanks for being the gang where i always go lepak at during recess period. xD Always wanted to be a level lower so can hang out with you guys the whole class period. But i just wasn't able to make that decision. ^^"
6. To the cyberians(Su Huan, Sim, MK) and malacans(...), tq tq~! ^@^
7. To M-chan, didn't expect you to call. and to thank you, i place you at number 7(your favourite number).
8. For those whom i left out your name, you guys/gals still play an important part in my life. Coz without you guys, my path taken will be in another direction.
My words to you all. Stay cool, live your live well, chill out when you're down and if you need something to light your candle, I sell lighters here. xD RM1.30 per lighter. Cheap cheap nia xD.
Am3n.
~>MJ
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Happy Birthday to me
To those who have wished me, thank you all. You are my true friend indeed. As for those who knew but didn't wished me, it's okay. Maybe u forgot. To those who forget, well, u r more forgivable i guess. xD
Anyway, been a busy day, and my freedom ends tomorrow. Summore i'm having a bad mouth ulcer right now. >.<" I think i'm gonna live a short life. LoL.
Amen.
~>MJ
Anyway, been a busy day, and my freedom ends tomorrow. Summore i'm having a bad mouth ulcer right now. >.<" I think i'm gonna live a short life. LoL.
Amen.
~>MJ
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Glimpse of a few days back
In case anyone is wondering what the heck am i doing back in Kuching after graduated unofficially, I'm now working for my dad at his coffeeshop, office and tackle shop.
Work will started from 6:15am till late 10pm. But since i crashed the car onto a traffic light(correction from the previous post; coz i actually crashed into a traffic light), i get to wake up a lil' bit later and car pool with my dad and get to reach the workplace at 7am; or maybe 8am. xD
Anyway, my job at the coffeeshop is mainly being a manager there. For the time being, i'm getting myself used to the situation at the coffeeshop doing some interview and focusing on the cashier part. Then i'm to learn to make drinks and then serve the customers.
Seems like an easy job? Come and try it yourself.
I'm still having problems memorizing the price list of the cigarettes, drinks and foods. Anyway, the staffs there are friendly as they mostly consists of teenagers and young adults at the age of 14-26. The shop has been opened for about 2 years now and business seems well so far.
Then i have hte job as an office boy at the office. Well not really an office boy as i'm handling some important documents as well. More like a staff there. Currently i'm learning how to sort and key in the details of my dad's small business.
Next for the tackle shop, my job is basically to be a good host to the customer. Training my marketing skills and also developing PR skills. Aside from that i'll be developing a website to promote and sell the products at the shop. Old bean says if we can achieve a certain standard every month, he's gonna sponsor us for a trip to Japan. WooT~! But here's the catch; the target is a freaking high target. >.<"
Well.. that's all for now. I'm gonna sacrifice my time in this coming 6 months to work under my dad and at the same time sharpen my programming skills. Hopefully after six months, i'll be a more stable and able to control-myself kind of person. :P
PS: Mun, Rine...i guess after convo, it'll be a long time since we'll meet again. ^^" Anyway, add oil. I'll see you guys soon. :D Take care.
PS: Michelle Ang, how you doing there? Everything good?
~>MJ
Work will started from 6:15am till late 10pm. But since i crashed the car onto a traffic light(correction from the previous post; coz i actually crashed into a traffic light), i get to wake up a lil' bit later and car pool with my dad and get to reach the workplace at 7am; or maybe 8am. xD
Anyway, my job at the coffeeshop is mainly being a manager there. For the time being, i'm getting myself used to the situation at the coffeeshop doing some interview and focusing on the cashier part. Then i'm to learn to make drinks and then serve the customers.
Seems like an easy job? Come and try it yourself.
I'm still having problems memorizing the price list of the cigarettes, drinks and foods. Anyway, the staffs there are friendly as they mostly consists of teenagers and young adults at the age of 14-26. The shop has been opened for about 2 years now and business seems well so far.
Then i have hte job as an office boy at the office. Well not really an office boy as i'm handling some important documents as well. More like a staff there. Currently i'm learning how to sort and key in the details of my dad's small business.
Next for the tackle shop, my job is basically to be a good host to the customer. Training my marketing skills and also developing PR skills. Aside from that i'll be developing a website to promote and sell the products at the shop. Old bean says if we can achieve a certain standard every month, he's gonna sponsor us for a trip to Japan. WooT~! But here's the catch; the target is a freaking high target. >.<"
Well.. that's all for now. I'm gonna sacrifice my time in this coming 6 months to work under my dad and at the same time sharpen my programming skills. Hopefully after six months, i'll be a more stable and able to control-myself kind of person. :P
PS: Mun, Rine...i guess after convo, it'll be a long time since we'll meet again. ^^" Anyway, add oil. I'll see you guys soon. :D Take care.
PS: Michelle Ang, how you doing there? Everything good?
~>MJ
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Ran out of luck
Just when you proudly ranked yourself as the person who is achieving 0% car crash record....shit happens. =_="
It was a terrible day yesterday evening as all my plans going out meeting old friends and planning a crazy birthday was all crushed with one stupid mistake of mine. I crashed into a traffic light while trying to evade a pearl blue Mercedes that suddenly intercepted my lane from the left. The Mercedes speed up after he over took my lane. Sigh~. thank god my friends that was with me were all okay. Not a single minor injury. But the car was in a terrible condition; front lights, bumper, radiator..maybe engine as well.. all gone!! >.< Traffic light still standing tall as if nothing had happened to it. =_="
I could've turned left... which was the logical thing to do. But why the heck i turned right?! OMG..... Anyway, bygones are bygones. I just hoped that my car's insurance can be claimed.
In the last two weeks, this car had been nearly involved in road accidents. There was once when it nearly get crashed by a druken bmw driver that was driving the wrong lane. And then there was this time when it got hit by a kancil until the bumper fell a little bit. My accident, the third one! So it's a STRIKE! And i rand out of LUCK! Geeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzz~!
SAD T_T!
~>MJ
It was a terrible day yesterday evening as all my plans going out meeting old friends and planning a crazy birthday was all crushed with one stupid mistake of mine. I crashed into a traffic light while trying to evade a pearl blue Mercedes that suddenly intercepted my lane from the left. The Mercedes speed up after he over took my lane. Sigh~. thank god my friends that was with me were all okay. Not a single minor injury. But the car was in a terrible condition; front lights, bumper, radiator..maybe engine as well.. all gone!! >.< Traffic light still standing tall as if nothing had happened to it. =_="
I could've turned left... which was the logical thing to do. But why the heck i turned right?! OMG..... Anyway, bygones are bygones. I just hoped that my car's insurance can be claimed.
In the last two weeks, this car had been nearly involved in road accidents. There was once when it nearly get crashed by a druken bmw driver that was driving the wrong lane. And then there was this time when it got hit by a kancil until the bumper fell a little bit. My accident, the third one! So it's a STRIKE! And i rand out of LUCK! Geeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzz~!
SAD T_T!
~>MJ
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
2 beds and a coffee machine
Just a song i find nice to listen to. Though it's a sad song. Savage Garden's not my favourite singer though. There's another version of it sang by a sweet girl.
*I'm double posting today*
~>MJ
*I'm double posting today*
~>MJ
To where i belong
I'm going back Kuching today. A part of me is glad. But somehow i feel so empty inside. Something inside of me is missing. Question is what is that missing thing?
Hopefully my trip back will be pleasant because i'm bringing two bags and a CPU along with me. ^^"
Right now i'm reminiscing what happen 5 years back. How 5 of us sat in a food court and discussed about places to stay, transportations and other plans when we get to MMU. then how some of us split because they got a better offer at the local university. Some got scholarship to further their studies to other countries.
The first mid sem break. The first loss, the first torturing trip which ended me crying in front of those two friends of mine. Till today, they are still my best friend. Though they are a pain in the ass at times. :P
Then there's my second chance and i just blew it up. Lessons i learnt in life. Always be willing to give if you want something in return. Sincerity may not be the the best policy. Sometimes you just need to be a lil' bit cruel. Persistence is the way to sucess. Always believe in GOD. Because if you don't have anyone to believe in, you'll find out that you do not have a place to belong to.
Basketball friends. The first time i drank so happily. And even after vomitting i'm still so happy about it. Thank you all. Hanging out with you guys at the court were my best times. Sadly I don't think there'll be another chance to do so in the near future.
My failures. And how i climbed up from the pits of darkness to reach where i am now. Still, i have a long way ahead of me.
Where do i go from here? I'm all alone now at square one. Me and my bagpack. I'll work something out somehow. I always do. It's the beginning of a new chapter now. . . .
~>MJ
Hopefully my trip back will be pleasant because i'm bringing two bags and a CPU along with me. ^^"
Right now i'm reminiscing what happen 5 years back. How 5 of us sat in a food court and discussed about places to stay, transportations and other plans when we get to MMU. then how some of us split because they got a better offer at the local university. Some got scholarship to further their studies to other countries.
The first mid sem break. The first loss, the first torturing trip which ended me crying in front of those two friends of mine. Till today, they are still my best friend. Though they are a pain in the ass at times. :P
Then there's my second chance and i just blew it up. Lessons i learnt in life. Always be willing to give if you want something in return. Sincerity may not be the the best policy. Sometimes you just need to be a lil' bit cruel. Persistence is the way to sucess. Always believe in GOD. Because if you don't have anyone to believe in, you'll find out that you do not have a place to belong to.
Basketball friends. The first time i drank so happily. And even after vomitting i'm still so happy about it. Thank you all. Hanging out with you guys at the court were my best times. Sadly I don't think there'll be another chance to do so in the near future.
My failures. And how i climbed up from the pits of darkness to reach where i am now. Still, i have a long way ahead of me.
Where do i go from here? I'm all alone now at square one. Me and my bagpack. I'll work something out somehow. I always do. It's the beginning of a new chapter now. . . .
~>MJ
Monday, June 11, 2007
I feel like....
Today is just a lame morning. I cant sleep. Must've been the caffeine. Now i feel so numb. >.<" It's like pinching on my skin and can't even feel a single pain. this is bad. Either my nervous system has gone haywired or i'm lack of blood circulation which causes lack of oxygen to my skin. Whatever it is, i just don't want to die right now. I got a future to create, a destiny to fulfill and a story to tell.
Ok... time for a break. Short break. Going to call kim hang up and send my package back to Kuching through Air mail at the post office.
~>MJ
Ok... time for a break. Short break. Going to call kim hang up and send my package back to Kuching through Air mail at the post office.
~>MJ
Friday, June 08, 2007
I GRADUATED FINALLY
WooT WOOT~! I passed all~!! I'm finally graduating~!! Nyahaha~!
Gee i'm so happy. So happy that i wanna share it with someone.
~>MJ
Sunday, June 03, 2007
I'm back in Malacca
After a week staying in CyberJaya, I have safely arrived in Malacca. :)
Places i've been to, people i met, stories i hear, it's all so new to me. Many things have i learnt. Many things have i came to understand. But there's this phrase which really bugs me. "The day I fall in love to you is the day I knew I would be rejected." Meaning of the words? I'll blog about it soon. For now, just enjoy some of the pictures which i have taken during my trip.

From left to right: Sim, Kah Mun, See Ying, Yuan Ping

BMW z3 and I @ PutraJaya ^^"

Corine n M-K

Pirates of the Carribean Gang

Surene n Ezriq @ Puchong Hill

Kah Mun n Su Huan taking a fresh air at The CURVE
~>MJ
Places i've been to, people i met, stories i hear, it's all so new to me. Many things have i learnt. Many things have i came to understand. But there's this phrase which really bugs me. "The day I fall in love to you is the day I knew I would be rejected." Meaning of the words? I'll blog about it soon. For now, just enjoy some of the pictures which i have taken during my trip.
From left to right: Sim, Kah Mun, See Ying, Yuan Ping
BMW z3 and I @ PutraJaya ^^"
Corine n M-K
Pirates of the Carribean Gang
Surene n Ezriq @ Puchong Hill
Kah Mun n Su Huan taking a fresh air at The CURVE
~>MJ
Monday, May 28, 2007
Cyberjay
Currently i'm at cyberjaya now, spending my break hanging out with my brethens. I'm not sure when will i see them again after i graduate mid of august this year. Rightn ow i'm unofficially graduated. I did my last papers and i think they were okay. Though my carry marks are kinda low. So it kinda bothers me as well.
There's so many things running thru my mind right now. So many things happening right now as i'm typing. My friend, ivan, is training for his gig performance this sunday, mun, taking his bath and maybe thinking of his "u-know-who", simmy...dono apa dia buat kat sana(means dono what he's doing over his place in malay). And ezriq, my new friend who is either taking his bath or ironing his working shirt for tomorrow while waiting for us to crash into his place. xD
So how long have i been in cyberjaya? Well, a day after my final paper. Took the afternoon bus and reached CJ(cyberjaya) at about 5pm sumthing. It was luck that day; either that it's freaking fate that got me to meet mun after months. I was suppose to stayed at see ying's place and waited for mun to come back from work before moving to stay over his place for the time being. But somehow, on the way to cyberjaya, there comes kah mun walking into the bus. And there was that surprise in his eyes as he tot i would've reached cj earlier. It was cool. how often do you get to meet your heng tai lidat? ^^"
First nite, we had a small dinner at see ying's place. I took a few pictures but sadly i didn't bring the cable to plug it into the pc. Dang. Anyway, that small dinner consists of me, kah mun, sim, see ying and yuan ping(wan ping). After dinner, we went back to take a bath before going for a stroll around putrajaya. At putrajay, they were having a rehersal for the "colours of Malaysia" which was going to be held the day after. the event was cool.. i guess. i didn't went for the evnt as i was in one U with friends wataching Pirated of the Carribean 3: At world's end. It was quite good how johnny depp acted. i laughed at the part where the rock became the crabs. But the kissing part between orlando bloom and keira knightley was kinda lame though. You will know once u read it. After the movie, we hanged out at ss2 murni. and after that asia cafe at subang to play pool n fooseball. and then there left 3 of us(ezriq, mun n i). We had an enjoyable nite.
On sunday, we just stayed in cyberia, took lunch n supper there. in the evening, mun's chief-tenant's boyfriend, aiman bought a new basketball back. So to the court we went. though i couldn't perform 100%, my team won all the games. ^^"
Aiman's back and i think it's time to let go the laptop (:P) . So that's all from me. c ya guys soon~ :P
~>MJ
There's so many things running thru my mind right now. So many things happening right now as i'm typing. My friend, ivan, is training for his gig performance this sunday, mun, taking his bath and maybe thinking of his "u-know-who", simmy...dono apa dia buat kat sana(means dono what he's doing over his place in malay). And ezriq, my new friend who is either taking his bath or ironing his working shirt for tomorrow while waiting for us to crash into his place. xD
So how long have i been in cyberjaya? Well, a day after my final paper. Took the afternoon bus and reached CJ(cyberjaya) at about 5pm sumthing. It was luck that day; either that it's freaking fate that got me to meet mun after months. I was suppose to stayed at see ying's place and waited for mun to come back from work before moving to stay over his place for the time being. But somehow, on the way to cyberjaya, there comes kah mun walking into the bus. And there was that surprise in his eyes as he tot i would've reached cj earlier. It was cool. how often do you get to meet your heng tai lidat? ^^"
First nite, we had a small dinner at see ying's place. I took a few pictures but sadly i didn't bring the cable to plug it into the pc. Dang. Anyway, that small dinner consists of me, kah mun, sim, see ying and yuan ping(wan ping). After dinner, we went back to take a bath before going for a stroll around putrajaya. At putrajay, they were having a rehersal for the "colours of Malaysia" which was going to be held the day after. the event was cool.. i guess. i didn't went for the evnt as i was in one U with friends wataching Pirated of the Carribean 3: At world's end. It was quite good how johnny depp acted. i laughed at the part where the rock became the crabs. But the kissing part between orlando bloom and keira knightley was kinda lame though. You will know once u read it. After the movie, we hanged out at ss2 murni. and after that asia cafe at subang to play pool n fooseball. and then there left 3 of us(ezriq, mun n i). We had an enjoyable nite.
On sunday, we just stayed in cyberia, took lunch n supper there. in the evening, mun's chief-tenant's boyfriend, aiman bought a new basketball back. So to the court we went. though i couldn't perform 100%, my team won all the games. ^^"
Aiman's back and i think it's time to let go the laptop (:P) . So that's all from me. c ya guys soon~ :P
~>MJ
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Why make friends?
According to our famous online encyclopedia, 'el WIKIPEDIA, Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behaviour between two or more humans.
It is undeniable in the fact that the more friends we have, the harder it will be in maintaining it. A lot of time is needed to keep track of friends' life, knowing about how they are doing, and offering a helping hand in times of trouble. Friendship is a bothersome. So why make friends?
REMEMBER. Put in mind that friendship is also a type of relationship. It's just a bit lower level compare to boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. And because it is a relationship, it involves love and commitment between two individuals; you and him/her. If either of you are not putting effort updating each other, as days pass, as time flies, the strength of the bond will become weaker. Unless of course both parties really trusts and have faith with each other. Just like how you put your trust and believes in them. Sometimes we even 'psycho' ourselves that the things we do are the right thing. "BELIEVE" "HAVE FAITH"
There are a few level of friendship; for my case, there's 3:
hi-bye friends(level 3),
potential friends(level 2),
and brotherhood/sisterhood("heng tai zhi mui" in my dictionary)(level 1).
Not sure about you guys and girls la.
Friendship, unlike relationship has their advantages, drawbacks and effects. Advantages that are available to you will depend on the level of friendship that are between you and your fellow mates. If the relationship is very good, you can share with them almost anything. And you will feel at ease, doing what you want to do in front of them; as to them, "you are you". You are not a tool; but a true friend.
Friendship, if fallen into the wrong clutches, is disastrous. There are people who take "friendship"not as a gift but as a tool to achieve what they want. I won't deny that i've never done this before. But it all depends on the situation. Always "give and more and take less". That is true friendship. If a friend takes more than what he gives, then he may just be your enemy. And you have a high chances of falling into a victim. And if you do, you will be fallen into the pits of hell, filled with anger, despair, hatred and maybe not even recognize yourself anymore. You will lose trust in others that treated you well, thinking " they want something from me."
When a friendship ends, the effect will be dependent on the friendship level that are between you and your friend. In level 3 friendship, you can lose a friend and yet almost feel no pain at all. As for level 2, losing them will be like losing a gamble. Because you do not know if they are your friends or enemies. And for level 1, losing them is almost like losing your identity. Well... almost like that. Imagine your best buddy of 10 years making you a scapegoat which ended you up in prison. Or your best buddy cheating on you with your girlfriend? Now ain't that hell? >.<" Friends comes and goes.
As we grow older, our circle of friends grows smaller. I've been there. I'm not the type that can survive alone. Therefore i need friends. Therefore, I am always seeking out new people to meet with. Regardless of their background. Just as long as they do not have a hidden agenda. At least you know that when you are in deep shit, somebody will get a shovel and dig u out of it. :P
Anyway, this should explains why is friendship important and why should we make friends. ~>MJ
It is undeniable in the fact that the more friends we have, the harder it will be in maintaining it. A lot of time is needed to keep track of friends' life, knowing about how they are doing, and offering a helping hand in times of trouble. Friendship is a bothersome. So why make friends?
REMEMBER. Put in mind that friendship is also a type of relationship. It's just a bit lower level compare to boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. And because it is a relationship, it involves love and commitment between two individuals; you and him/her. If either of you are not putting effort updating each other, as days pass, as time flies, the strength of the bond will become weaker. Unless of course both parties really trusts and have faith with each other. Just like how you put your trust and believes in them. Sometimes we even 'psycho' ourselves that the things we do are the right thing. "BELIEVE" "HAVE FAITH"
There are a few level of friendship; for my case, there's 3:
hi-bye friends(level 3),
potential friends(level 2),
and brotherhood/sisterhood("heng tai zhi mui" in my dictionary)(level 1).
Not sure about you guys and girls la.
Friendship, unlike relationship has their advantages, drawbacks and effects. Advantages that are available to you will depend on the level of friendship that are between you and your fellow mates. If the relationship is very good, you can share with them almost anything. And you will feel at ease, doing what you want to do in front of them; as to them, "you are you". You are not a tool; but a true friend.
Friendship, if fallen into the wrong clutches, is disastrous. There are people who take "friendship"not as a gift but as a tool to achieve what they want. I won't deny that i've never done this before. But it all depends on the situation. Always "give and more and take less". That is true friendship. If a friend takes more than what he gives, then he may just be your enemy. And you have a high chances of falling into a victim. And if you do, you will be fallen into the pits of hell, filled with anger, despair, hatred and maybe not even recognize yourself anymore. You will lose trust in others that treated you well, thinking " they want something from me."
When a friendship ends, the effect will be dependent on the friendship level that are between you and your friend. In level 3 friendship, you can lose a friend and yet almost feel no pain at all. As for level 2, losing them will be like losing a gamble. Because you do not know if they are your friends or enemies. And for level 1, losing them is almost like losing your identity. Well... almost like that. Imagine your best buddy of 10 years making you a scapegoat which ended you up in prison. Or your best buddy cheating on you with your girlfriend? Now ain't that hell? >.<" Friends comes and goes.
As we grow older, our circle of friends grows smaller. I've been there. I'm not the type that can survive alone. Therefore i need friends. Therefore, I am always seeking out new people to meet with. Regardless of their background. Just as long as they do not have a hidden agenda. At least you know that when you are in deep shit, somebody will get a shovel and dig u out of it. :P
Anyway, this should explains why is friendship important and why should we make friends. ~>MJ
Sunday, May 13, 2007
True Beauty
True Beauty
Beauty is a thing seldom seen
No one sees it because no one looks
Or at least not in the right place
Beauty is held by all
Within the soul it lies
Waiting to come out to the surface
Only it can't
Beauty is suppressed by the evils of the world
Only love can bring beauty out
Once seen
Beauty never hides again
Not even hatred can deny beauty
Of it's true design
Beauty although possessed by all
Will only ever be truly seen by few
And fewer yet will ever see
One of the most beautiful sights
The beauty held by you
I suddenly thought of this phrase "true beauty" and decided to google it. And it led me to a wedding accessories website. Hmm.... is that an omen? nah~. i'm not to be married till i'm 28 at least. Hopefully by then i'll be financial stable and earning an annual income of RM100K. Then i'd have a son and a daugther. :D
Anyway, enuf crapping for now.. gotta get back to my study. exam in a few more days. can't play now. >.<" I'll blog more after i'm done with my finals.
PS: this is for @nG3L, regardless of what happens, i still think you are beautiful. :)
Am3n
~>MJ
Anyway, enuf crapping for now.. gotta get back to my study. exam in a few more days. can't play now. >.<" I'll blog more after i'm done with my finals.
PS: this is for @nG3L, regardless of what happens, i still think you are beautiful. :)
Am3n
~>MJ
Friday, May 11, 2007
I think I'm gonna be alone again
Sad to say this. But seems like i've been receiving bad omen. If that's true, then i guess that when the time comes, i'll have to let go. They say true love is when your are able to let go, and at the same time willing to suffer for that loss. It is to understand why you lost it. And to tell to yourself that it is for the best of both. Right now, I just don't feel well. Some times i wish these sculptures i built would just crumble and drag me along with them. Feels like hell here. A cold hell.
Am3n
~>MJ
Am3n
~>MJ
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Can you name 10 ppl?
I got this from a bulleting posted up in Friendster. Being bored and finding it interesting. I just took part in it. xD Here's what i think about these 10 ppl in my mind.
1. kah mun
2. jasmine
3. corine
4. sim
5. johnny
6. kelvin
7. ai ling
8. mike
9. kim hang
10. lawrence
How'd u meet 3?
-in class. same groupmate.. was in chee ai ling's gang. xD
What would you do if you had never met
number 1?
-I would never know that my other half actually existed? xD
What would you do if 6 and 2 were
going out?
- i think i'll be shock.
Have you ever seen 4 cry?
-as far i remember, nope... dun think i ever want to.
Where did you meet number 10?
-st3 prom nite(utopia nite rite?)
How do you know 8?
-he just happen to lurk in my class everytime during recess abck in highschool. Cool guy. U can see him on tv8 every sunday 10:30pm. xD
What do you think about 7?
-i scare of her one. Dun wanna make her angry. But she's a nice friend oso.
What would you do if 5 confessed they
loved you?
-sorry johnny, u may be the first guy i met during class in mmu, but i'm not gay. -D' End
A fact/or something about 9
-a reliable guy.
Who is 2 going out with?
-i wish i knew. Maybe it's better not to know. xD
What's 4 do for a living?
-i know he's still a student. Working part time in cyberjaya maybe.
Would you ever live with number 8?
-Of course. Cool guy to be with man. xD
Where does 3 live?
-penang island.
What do you like about number 1?
-this guy can fish almost any chick out. One hell of a sweet talker.
Is 2 your best friend?
-used to... i guess.
Do you miss number 3?
-saying no will be a total lie. She's my daugther~.
What is your opinion of number 5?
-a religious guy.
Is 10 a power ranger?
-i'm not sure. But i know he is semi-otaku. xD
Repost as: "Can you name 10 ppl?"
1. kah mun
2. jasmine
3. corine
4. sim
5. johnny
6. kelvin
7. ai ling
8. mike
9. kim hang
10. lawrence
How'd u meet 3?
-in class. same groupmate.. was in chee ai ling's gang. xD
What would you do if you had never met
number 1?
-I would never know that my other half actually existed? xD
What would you do if 6 and 2 were
going out?
- i think i'll be shock.
Have you ever seen 4 cry?
-as far i remember, nope... dun think i ever want to.
Where did you meet number 10?
-st3 prom nite(utopia nite rite?)
How do you know 8?
-he just happen to lurk in my class everytime during recess abck in highschool. Cool guy. U can see him on tv8 every sunday 10:30pm. xD
What do you think about 7?
-i scare of her one. Dun wanna make her angry. But she's a nice friend oso.
What would you do if 5 confessed they
loved you?
-sorry johnny, u may be the first guy i met during class in mmu, but i'm not gay. -D' End
A fact/or something about 9
-a reliable guy.
Who is 2 going out with?
-i wish i knew. Maybe it's better not to know. xD
What's 4 do for a living?
-i know he's still a student. Working part time in cyberjaya maybe.
Would you ever live with number 8?
-Of course. Cool guy to be with man. xD
Where does 3 live?
-penang island.
What do you like about number 1?
-this guy can fish almost any chick out. One hell of a sweet talker.
Is 2 your best friend?
-used to... i guess.
Do you miss number 3?
-saying no will be a total lie. She's my daugther~.
What is your opinion of number 5?
-a religious guy.
Is 10 a power ranger?
-i'm not sure. But i know he is semi-otaku. xD
Repost as: "Can you name 10 ppl?"
Monday, April 30, 2007
A lil' bit better
Things just got a lil' bit better. But the nightmare ain't over yet. It's trying to lower my guard down. I just knew it. Had to be careful. One wrong move is all it takes to lose the game.
After reading this, I rethink about my past, and the future that awaits me. What is my destiny? Where am i suppose to go from here? Only one way to know - Read The Omen.
@m3n.
~> MJ
Anyway, life is a bit clear for me now. I saw the path which i must take. Sadly along the way i had to sacrifice things which are important to me. Few weeks back, i had a Lithuanian friend who sent me an e-book for me to read. It's called "The Alchemist" and is written by Paulo coelho. An interesting book on life. Thanks Dalia. It's an interesting book indeed.
The Alchemist tells the story of a sherperd boy who dreamt of finding a treasure somewhere in the dessert, near the pyramid. That was the second time he dreamt of it and he kept wondering about the message that was in the dream. One day, he visited a town and visited a gypsy who interpreted his dream. He doubted his dream at first but then he met with an old man who happens to be a king. The king told him stories and at the end of the day, he started a long an interesting journey to the dessert. Through his journey, he learnt to listen to the language of the soul, see what others didn't see and understood that everyone has a destiny to fulfill. To know more about the book, i'll suggest u go get it. So happy reading.
The Alchemist tells the story of a sherperd boy who dreamt of finding a treasure somewhere in the dessert, near the pyramid. That was the second time he dreamt of it and he kept wondering about the message that was in the dream. One day, he visited a town and visited a gypsy who interpreted his dream. He doubted his dream at first but then he met with an old man who happens to be a king. The king told him stories and at the end of the day, he started a long an interesting journey to the dessert. Through his journey, he learnt to listen to the language of the soul, see what others didn't see and understood that everyone has a destiny to fulfill. To know more about the book, i'll suggest u go get it. So happy reading.
After reading this, I rethink about my past, and the future that awaits me. What is my destiny? Where am i suppose to go from here? Only one way to know - Read The Omen.
@m3n.
~> MJ
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