Tuesday, May 31, 2005

I wanted so much to sleep...wanted so much to forget and wake up fresh the next day

Things in me are improving...in my preparation for supp that is... But still i'm having a problem with my sleep. Cant manage to get my mind to a rest. I've got an e-mail from a friend that states honey helps. Alas i do not like honey. Plus there's no honey in my room. So i guess i'll just wasted all my energy up and hope one day my whole body will crumble and my mind blank that i wouldn't have too think of anything much. Maybe sumthing like a comma for 8 hours would do. Haha. just kidding anyway. :P Who would wanna sleep like a "cabbage". I prefer sleeping in dreams. But i have to put myself to bed first. Problem again is sumhow my brain isn't willing to. Oh well.

guess i'm gonna dota till i get X-tREMELY EXHAUSTED~!

-Ic3

Monday, May 30, 2005

Missing chances

I see lots of chances slip by me. Wonder when will i learn not to miss them?

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Hope lost...along with Faith.

Life lately hasn't been how i thought it would be. I'm therefore unknowingly sealing myself from all sorts of happiness as it seems. Nothing much seems to interests me rite this moment. Is there anything i can do about myself? How do i get myself back on track? How do i re-live my life? Can anyone help me?

So far the only answer i got from myself is "only You(me) can do it". Weird isn't it? The mind seems to know what's best for the body but yet the body refuses to do it. Same as life.

Currently thinking of other options to fix my idle life. Hmm.....

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Sumthing I like.

Check this link out. I'm sure u guys/gals will like it. ^^. I've watched this video a couple of times eversince 2001 and i can say that i've never gotten bored over it. It's a nice Korean MV. Hope you guys/gals will like it. :)
http://dnaoffice.dyndns.org/matrix/KISS.wmv

Friday, March 25, 2005

Stress Time~! Stress Time~!

Currently is the last week of the academic week, which means after this week, no more midterms, no more assignments due and no more boring lecturer. Unfortunately, I still got lots of things to do and the clock is ticking like a timebomb for me. SE individual report due today, TRM assignments due tomorrow and lab test tomorrow. And what's special for today? I have to go pay up for my academic fee coz my PTPTN loan just wouldn't come. Damn.. Should've called up PTPTN ealier if i knew this would happen. If i dun pay up i'm going to get BARRED from exam. Sigh~. Messy life i have here.

Everything's totally messed up this semester. Really really really really messy. Hopefully it'll all change by next semester. Pray to LORD.

AMEN.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

He was not handsome

I got this from friendster. The story is nice but i'm not sure if the story is true though it make sense.
Work your way for love and you will find love. Amen.


This is based on a true
story.. If
you like it, re-post it.. Perhaps you will find the
love
you have been waiting for all this time..

He was not handsome..But he had feelings..
One day, he felt in love with one gurl..A
gurl he really had a crush on..But he
realized that he was not handsome..So he
kept it deep inside his heart..

He was not handsome..Knowing this, he still
approached the gurl he admired..Upon
approaching her, he asked her name and
asked for her number.. They came into
contact with each other..The guy was so
happy
and he felt nice talking to the gurl..

He was not handsome..He had to remember
this all the time..He knew he couldnt say out
his wish to the gurl..However, one day, he
took up the strength to call the gurl..When
he was about to pick up the reciever, the
phone
rang..It was her..His crush...His gurl of his
dreams..she asked him out on that
night..There was no reason for him to say
NO..That night, they went to a restaurant..for
dinner..

He was not handsome..This was proven to
him at that night..When the gurl told him that
she had a crush on another guy. his heart was
crushed into pieces by his own crush..but he
didnt
say a word..He knew it..He was not
handsome~!...

He was not handsome..and he knew he
wont
get his gurl of his dream..So he intended to
help the gurl out..He took the gurl to the guy
whom she had a crush on..After a week, he
saw the gurl dating with the guy..He knew
that there is no more hope for him..

He was not handsome..and this made him
loose his love..He just kept his feelings deep
inside his heart..But it was okay for him..as
his love was happy with the guy she loved..

He was not handsome..but maybe his
powerful love brought his gurl back to
him..One day, the gurl came all the way
crying to him..she said to him that she lost
the guy,the guy play timer and dumped
her..she
was all in tears and didnt know where to go..

He was not handsome..but he loved her..He
wiped the tears off the gurl and gave a warm
hug..The gurl felt the warm feel gush through
her nerves and touch her heart deep
inside..she realized that this is her true love..

he was not handsome..but he found his love
finally..and he was happy ...

p/s: looks are not really the most important
thing in love..Consider the feelings of
the ppl around you..You might just find
that true love of yours..He may not be
handsome..but he might love you more than
anyone could ever love you!.. and that is
greater than some bastard idiots who
doesn't love u.

If you think they're true, pass it on.
If you don't? Pass it on anyway, maybe
someone else will think it is.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Ulcer~!~!

DAmn ulcer growing beneath my cheeks near the upper teeth, below my upper teeth and infront of my upper teeth. GEez....wat a nuisance they are. Anyway, these are sumthing which i got frm the web. Sumthing to share. ^^

Mouth Ulcers


Despite the common occurrence of mouth ulcers and vast amounts of research, the cause of these irritating sores is still not completely understood. However, by far and away the most common cause is the infection of an injury in the mouth. These injuries can be cuts, abrasions or burns.

A mouth ulcer affects the softer areas of the mouth, for example the tongue and cheeks. The surface layer of the skin is removed leading to the formation of the ulcer which usually appears circular with a yellow or white centre and a raised red rim. It is because of the removal of the skin layer that nerve cells are exposed causing the associated pain.

You should not attempt to treat a mouth ulcer yourself if:

  • you are pregnant
  • you are diabetic
  • the ulcer has an uneven colouration
  • the ulcer is causing you no discomfort or pain
  • it is your first mouth ulcer
  • it has been present for more than 14 days
  • it is larger than 1cm in diameter
  • you take any other medication


Treatment

There are many types of treatment available. These can be placed into three main categories:

Pain Relief

These products contain ingredients which act to prevent the sensation of pain. They usually contain an anaesthetic which is applied directly to the ulcer. After some initial stinging while the anaesthetic starts to work the area will become numb.
Care should be taken with hot food and drinks as further damage can be caused to the ulcer while it is numb.

Some examples of the anaesthetics used are benzocaine and lidocaine.

Also available is an ingredient called choline salicylate which is related to aspirin. This pain killer works at the site of the ulcer in the same way as the analgesics or pain killers. This means that they are generally longer acting than the anaesthetics.

Choline salicylate should not be used by people allergic to aspirin.


Antibacterials

These treatments are used to kill any bacteria that may be infecting the ulcer or more generally the entire mouth. They are usually mouth washes if the antibacterial is the only active ingredient although they are often incorporated into the other treatments, for example, pain relief treatments.

Anti-inflammatories

These are the newest treatments available for mouth ulcers, they are based on corticosteriods which act to reduce the inflammation at the site of the ulcer and as such aid healing.

It is important to note that the use of these locally acting products avoids many of the associated side effects of oral corticosteriods.


General Advice

There are some simple things you can do to reduce the discomfort felt while you have a mouth ulcer.

Firstly, do not expose the ulcer to foods which cause pain and aggravate the symptoms. These types of food are acidic, spicy, salty, coarse or hot and cold. However it may be of some benefit to gargle with salt water as this is mildly antibacterial.

You can also use mouth washes regularly to prevent mouth ulcers if you find that you are getting mouth ulcers regularly.

You should consult your doctor if the problem persists..

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Another Idle and yet, Tiring Day

I'm tired... ^-^; Hitting the sacks now.


-Ic3

Friday, March 04, 2005

A night to remember~!

It was just yesterday evening, around 9pm when I got a ym! msg from ah_peh(birthday boy) asking me whether I want to go for 'satay celup'. I accepted the offer since it's ah_peh's invitation and I haven't taken my dinner yet (due to the rainy day~). So I got dressed up 'casually'(a T-shirt and three-quarter jean-pants), waited for Kim Hian(Ultraman) to pick me up while I try to sing my voice out to the song 'iris' by goo goo dolls. My voice sucks btw. ^^'

Minutes later ultraman arrived and off we go to Capitol. When we arrived there, the seats we all full. So we waited for like 10 minutes until the next group of ppl leaves. The meal there was pleasant and we were served with octopus and BIG tiger prawn. The last tiger prawn given was really big~(Compare to the other tables. Ppl were staring at our prawn when KY started to be HIGH with the prawn. He was like "Omg~! this prawn is so damn big." */swt*) It was about 20cm long. And the best part was it costs only 50cents. ^^; God for ah peh lah. Birthday boy got his birthday gift from Capitol as well. Haha. So how much we ate that nite? Well, it's RM130. 0-0; It's expensive but it was enjoyable.

Next on the list was the 'yam char' session. And destination was PURE. We shared a JD(Jack Daniels) that nite. Took 8 of us only 30 minutes to finish the whole thing. And boy that wasn't just all. B-kun(the' kun' isn't a referring actually. It's more referring to 'stick' in hakka.) then suggested that he treat us all on a bottle of Hennessy VSOP for that nite. Boy was I really starting to get freak out. I never drank those heavy stuff before. JD was my first time. And VSOP is also new to me. So he opened the drink and then most of them got HIGH. Ping, Tham, KY, Peh, Ultraman and B-kun were all like drinking the stuff raw. No soft drinks mix together. It really amaze me seeing how good they are at drinking. 0.0.

That time my body was already heating up and I could feel my burning face, so I decided not to drink anymore so I could drive them back in case they got drunk. So I told Kah Ling to drink on my behalf. Unfortunately I was spotted by them and this is where the bad things come. They started to stare at me with evil thoughts in their mind. What else could it be except that B-kun took my glass which was filled with coke and drank it, then replaced it with VSOP. I was starting to imagine me getting drunk for the very first time. Luckily for me, I manage to negotiate them that I'll finish the drink but little by little. I tot I would be drunk after that but instead of getting more drunk, my mind was getting clearer. But that lasted for like only 10 minutes =-=. Best agenda of the night was ah peh got persuade to drink 4 shots of tequila. B-kun wanted to treat me but I said no. Tequila shot is like more than 40% alcohol. Which means it's much more heavier than Cognac or VSOP. So the nite ended with a drunk ah peh and fortunately Ultraman was still conscious. So my worry of getting involve in something bad was just a dream.

Reach back home at around 3am and as soon as I reached my room, my stomach started to go wrong. I quickly rushed to the toilet and I was just in the nick of time to 'bulemic' the 'satay celup's and also those 'tea' out. ^^. I vomited for like 7 times. And i can tell u that it's not a good feeling when u vomit. But u do feel better AFTER u vomit. I slept on my room's wooden floor that nite and hours later slept on my bed coz the nite was getting chilly.

And that's all for today. I woke up at 6am with still a bit of pain in my head. But right now i'm okay. ^^. I found out sumthing that nite. I could actually drink and not get drunk. Only problem is I'll vomit after that. ^^;


PS: M-chan ym me tonite but byt the time i got back, she was already off9. T-T. Oh well...


-End

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

1st of March, 18 days before M's b'day.

Not really sure what should i blog today. So once more it's crap session. ^^; Currently listening to John Mayer's "daugther". Had a very f*** up day 12hrs back as my tcp2411 group's presentation totally suck. Lots of things went wrong. It was so bad that our programs went wrong. It was working at first. But why not then? Fortunately Ms. Vimala was kind enuf to let us "live" until this friday. After that i had to rushed back home and settle my "stomach". >-<. Now i have to go for 10am lab later on. So much for the stomachache.

Got my exam schedule today. But venues are unconfirmsed yet. So maybe after i've got kim hang's schedule, and plan a bit coz i plan to visit kuantan, then i'll plan my flight date back home. ^^ Miss home. But miss the puppies more~! Wonder how are they now? Sigh.

One thing kept going through my mind these few days. "How am i gonna sort up my life?" My life is really in a mess right now. Gotta get "FAT", get a good sleeping habit, get tidy and most important of all, do well in my studies. Help me sum1. Anyone can do.

Don't feel like cont. crapping. So that's all. Tata.

-Ic3

Sunday, February 27, 2005

Rainy day~!

After nearly a week of hazy days accompannied by the glaring sun as well as the hot environment, it finally rained. So i'm gonna finish this asap and then head for bed. So wat happen past two days? Well, i did a last 3 hrs of preparation for Trinite. Haha ^^; Got the car(a rent white kancil) at 4 and then went out with Allen to JJ to hunt for formal shirt and a tie. Costs me about RM106.80 for the shirt and the tie. And to sums up the expenditure for that nite, i used up about RM200-. T-T Rent a kancil for a day costs me RM70, drank carlsberg at GreenWorld cost me RM12, Petrol fuel costs me RM10. Trinite was so so~! Not really fun but well, it does feel like a prom nite compare to last year's one....from my own perspective that is.

So 12 hours ago we were suppose to go on a steamboat for dinner. But ended up having dinner at Newton hawker stall instead. Spent like about RM15 for the food but it's worth it~! Much better than steamboat. Next agenda was at 11:30pm where tie, li zhao, chak gor, jin rong and i went pasar borong for supper. The conversation were mostly on IT-based. Kinda boring for me but then the part about FYP(final year project) hits me. Yeah..we're gonna make up sumthing big and earn cash from it~! F*** MMU. You cna go to hell for as long as i care~! Muahahaha~!! ^-^;

Anyway..i think p-chan would be glad for the rainy day tonite. Air is cooling and it's so nice~!!! Time to sleep liaw. Haha. Guess both our wish for the rain to come finally happen ei? :-D

That's all. nites~!

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Lost my precious memories...rebuilding a new one

Current mood: swingy Currently listening to: M's - "2 beds and a coffee machine"

Okay...so i finally got a new replacement for my "dead" 40GB WD-caviar HDD. Sigh~ lost all my precious things there. But luckily i backed up the important stuff. Only things i forgot to backed up are the databases and the msg logs... oh well.

Anyway, time now is 8.14am and i just finished my w3-DOTA. It was a tough victory. But the cooperation paid off~! Managed to get the creeps to raze all the production buildings. Hahaha. fd...I pound ya first~! Come and get me dude~! ^^. Anyway, no flaming pls. 0=)

Next class in 1 hr n 45 minutes. And worst part is i haven't slept through the whole nite. Damn. Oh well...guess I'll have to stand thru this whole 8 hrs...^^;

M-chan's voice is really sweet. But unfortunately the tone of her voice sounds like she's very sad. Mayeb i'm just thinking too much. M, if u read this(which i'm sure u will), Take care ya. I might have tried to let it all go but still you're there some how. It's unexplainable that sumthing from M could turn my life upside down and back again to the way it used to be. Listening to her voice could heal my pain, loneliness but when i think back, i feel like having tons of silver arrows being shot through my body and soul. The pain is unbearable. But i know it's the path i have choze to take. So i'll walk it till the other side.

That's all for now. Gonna rest my body liaw. Jaa..

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Drawing with P-chan


Above is wat i did just now....just nt long. Guess who drew who? Actually the story from the drawings above is like this. I was chatting with p-chan then we talked about hairstyle. So she used the "Doodle" environment from yahoo messenger to draw to tell me wat is fringe. After that i started drawing and she did too. I drew a fox head with a tail while p-chan drew a christmas tree. /swt. Dunno why she so into x'mas. Maybe she got a very nice x'mas pressie last x'mas? Anyway, i was suppose to print screen that image when i accidentally closed teh msg. Damn~. Luckily for me, p-chan is free to draw again. Since she couldn't think of wat to draw, so i suggest that i drew her face and she drew mine. It took p-chan about 30minutes to finish the drawing. But for me...it took me like 1 hr. (T-T). Using a mouse to draw is really hard. Seriously. Summore i kept erasing the things i drew. ^-^; Anyway...that's all for now. B4 i call it a day, wanna thank p-chan again for the drawing. I post it here liaw. Hope you like it~! :-D

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

I sang for V'day~

Well...to my fellow housemates...if u hear me singing that lee hom's song with those off-tune voice of mine, u'll know that i'm singing for that sumone special. Unfortunately i'm not lucky enuf to celebrate this v'day with her. It's not because of my bloody TCP papper on that nite but of other factor like we're in a different world now. M, I nvr tot i would really be singing and recording this to you coz i know i dun have a nice voice. But there it was. There's the song for you. I dunno if u like it o not but i've tried my best in that shortest time. Happy v'day, M-chan~!

Happy V'day to you as well my dearest P-chan. May you find your other half soon.

And to Joan. Happy V'day + 2nd friendship anniversary. =-)


-Ic3

Monday, February 14, 2005

Last minute "pia chek" for Midterm

CNY hols is over and it's time to study...darn~!

Thursday, February 10, 2005

2nd day of CNY

Here i am at my old house multi-tasking. Right hand typing the keyboard, left carrying the plate of "kolo mee", and me ears listening to the yelping of the puppies. Guess the mom's here. Going to unlock the cages and let the pups free till i finish this blog. then it'll be puppy-sitting for me. ^-^" Boy, it's such a day. So what have i done recently? Well..erm i did one friendster reply to agneslina. Wonder when am i gonna reply the real msg? Too busy lately. When to lowyat forum, Erm...study abit and went to visit a few of my relatives. Along the visiting, i ogt the chance to see a car in flame at sumwhere at 17th mile there there. Also, sumone smsed me. 0168052943 <--this should be the no. if not mistaken. I ended up being disturbed by him/her. wth? Isn't that wan lu? But how come the person keep asking me to speak malay? Sigh..oh well, if i see her online i'll ask her.

So today i'm suppose to do sum visiting. Or better yet, study. But I would rather choose option A eventhough my papers are after this week(stated in previous post). Hmm...nothing else to say except later at 6pm gonna have a smal reunion dnnner at Richmond's Place. Where else after that? Not sure.

Stopping it all for now. Though my mind has lots of things to pop up. Majorities are personel matters. So i'll just stick it in mind for the time being and then let it out on the other side of this world. Amen.

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

HAPPY Chinese New Year~!!

"Xin Nian Lai Le...." Well.. CNY is bak here again. Alas i've not much time to describe musch about it yet. Since my day back to kuching, God had bear 8 cute puppies consisting of 2 females and 6 males into my family. All with it's very own unique characteristics. Among them, one is a "whinner" named D.D., a sleepy head, an active and very curious pup, a fatso, and many more.

Next is an update on my current life. Let's see...I re injured my knee AGAIN during a recent bball match. So i guess this time i really have to start going to gym to traing my knee. Dunno what's gonna happen if i dun strengthen my knee. T-T

Hm...wat else... oh ya, for ROSE, finally i got a chance to play in union war. Though i died like 10 times, i manage to kill 1. Well, better than nothing rite? Furthermore the enemies there were like lvl70-90. And i'm only 57. Sigh. When i gonna be like sonoko who's now almost lvl 70? Have to train harder n die lesser.

Tomolo's CNY but not even a single visiting plan is set up yet. Maybe i'll go check in yahoo groups later on to plan. :) Check M-chan's blog today. And her latest post was about twins. hmmm.........interesting topic ei? Wonder where is my twin? If i see him, I sure gonna duel him in bball first~! Then later talk. Hehe.

Guess that's all for now. With CNY getting nearer, my inbox is full with smses. Wonder when i'm gonna get the chance to upgrade my sim card? Currently i can store only like 10 sms at most. Sigh. Hope i can buy a new hp by then. :-D

Tat's all for now. jaa mata.

Sunday, February 06, 2005

2.55am--Time CRISIS

okay...gotta make this fast. Since i nid a good sleep and erm...wake up at 8:30am and meet my cuz at 9:30am at petronas there. i still got lots of things to do. eating raisins rite now coz they aren't any other snack i can eat. Summore i lazy to cook. Anyway, pack all my stuffs dy, Got my new year clothes, pants; and burnt the cds, prepared the cash for the journey. Planning to bring my dad's camera back but in the end i think i'll just skip it. Dun want to bring too much for this one week in kuching. And i dun think dad will nid the camera that soon also.

So what else have i not done? Hm...reply alicia's friendster msg which i've postponed for more than 3 days. ^^;. paiseh ar alica. Guess that's all for now. Tomolo have to remind myself to check n close all the windows, lock the doors...erm...take off the gas tube...wat else...hmmm........i'll think about it later. Anyway, that's all for now. I'll write more once i'm back kuching. hoopefully i have time then. Coz i have to study during thsi one week coz after this break, it's the mid-term exam. =-=|| damn....
oh well..signing off~!

jaamata ~!

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

26, January 2005 Wednesday 7.55am

Track currently playing: 你爱我还是他-陶

Current problems: low in cash ^^;

Later on will be my quiz for TRM2191 and i just woke up not long. gonna study after i finish this blog and get my bath, brush my teeth and get myself a breakfast.

So what have been happening lately? Well, actually quite a few. Just that i dunno where to start. So i guess i'll just type out what i can remember for now and forget the rest.; whether it's a happy thing o not.

First of all, i wonder why m-chan stopped writing her blog? Been quite a while adi since she last wrote sumthing concerning insomnia. Hmm.....maybe this can help my buddy out. He's been having sumthing like insomnia lately. should send this link to him. *nods head*.

Second, would like to thank p-chan who would most of the time be there when i need her. And thanx for ur phrase that reminds me of sumting sweet, "Anyone knows why is there a gap between our fingers? If know msg me ^^".

Reminds me of that time back in Tun Jugah. Reminds me a lot of sweet memories. ^^. Well, the souvenir from that memory is still with me here. And i'm keeping it very well.

3rd, thank my brethens in UA 3-09(forgot ur apartment address. But u know who u guys are lah hor?), Mr. Hak n Mr. Hamster(stupid hamster-muahahahaha) for yesterday's pleasent dinner. Thanx for the company.

4th, would like to thank my housemate, Alien(Allen Ang) for following me to bball court to watch the girl's training. Paiseh ar...i kena tipu by my friend liaw....grrrr ~! Ah peh~!!! Mana ada ah moi cantik sana? All pok chop de~

5th, Sending gratitude to housemates again-> 小弟弟 win-san(vincent chai) for da games n lemon(Raymond Kuek) for tuition without tuition fees~!! ^^

6th, Erm............thank everybody lah....My family, my buddies, other friends, the mmu staffs, mmu workers, the facilities, the food....guess should be all.

Oh ya....THANK ME OSO. And achievement for this year so far would be killing a cockcroach on 24th January. i was just about to sleep when win-san came in and ask me to "show my skills?". Next thing i know was that there's a cockcroach in their room. Oh well... piece of cake. Anyone nid a roach-buster? I give fast and clean service. Reminder:: Make sure u have a good flusher. Else i bbq the roach like last time. ^^;

hmm......after reviewing what i typed, i once find out agian that i'm crapping again. Sigh.... Maybe next time i'll just draw and scan. Would be great ei? :D

Friday, January 21, 2005

Supposedly

Planned to start study this afternoon but turn out that i didn't. Been doing other stuff mostly related with forums. Luckily i didn't touch rose. Else i would really be dead. Wat to do now? wat to do now? Head's dizzy maybe due to the hot weather. Then again it should be due to the reason that i haven't eaten any decent meal since this morning. Had about 5-6 slices of crackers and water and also 2 tablets of B-complex just now.

Woke up at 9am though. Wish i had a car rite now so i could go out and hunt for food. But that's unlikely possible coz i'm not stayin forever in mlk. Will be heading back homeland in sarawak once i graduated.

Wonder if i'm gonna study today? Well, let's see then. Hopefully i will.

Signing of now. Going to get a rest. Call it as hiubernate till dinner time.